Let this be my daily prayer

Our Father in Heaven,

hallowed be Your name,

your kingdom come,

your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

Give us today our daily bread,

forgive us our debts,

as we also have forgiven our debtors.

And lead us not into temptation,

but deliver us from the evil one.

Amen.

Disciple-sheep

Today had the Gap where the youths intercede for the ministry and various committees.

Thank God for the willing hearts who turned up on time, really...

And during the prayer with Elaine and David for sparks, God put in my mind really interesting stuff...

Disciple-sheep...

*Uh?* Why sheep?

Then I saw David and Saul...2 guys who I have been reading about lately...

And then I reflected about the past few days of reading...

Ahh! God revealed something...

Hence I shall name the Mentoring committee as "Disciple-sheep"...

In due time, I'll let my boss know =D

So why David and Saul?

Well for David, as a little kid, he was sent to look after sheep...

Dumb and smelly sheep, what a degrading job...

But God showed me, that He trained David in herding sheep so that He can use him to take over King Saul in future...

David had to fight off lions and bears to protect his sheep...

David could have just let the sheep die but he chose the opposite...he risked his life as a boy...

Who would have thought, that the Almighty God could use this job to raise David up...

The boy, who could be trusted with little, was given even greater things in the future...

David later grew up to become King, and he was a people's king and a God-fearing King...

He was mindful of God in his early years unlike Saul, who sought to kill David out of jealousy...

So you might ask, how does this link to discipleship?

Well, I'm still asking God about this but I know now, that even a small boy like David was willing to risk his life for his sheep, how much more should we give our time and effort to the ones we are looking after and shepherding...

And God, the Great Shepherd of all who gave His one and only Son for the world, faithfully shepherds his children...

Every single one of them...

Including you reading this =)

God is love and God loves. He loves you and me very very much.

Do you dare to believe?

Reflecting on reflections

Had Cross roads today...Speaker spoke on how God speaks...

Interesting points learnt today =)

Was approached by CC staff asking me if I would like to join the leader's session for meta.

I really want to thank God for this opportunity.

Been wondering how I can give more in Crusade when I don't know many people and everyone seems to be cliquish...

I guess this is very real anywhere else and I must take note of this danger...

Anyway, mid-terms are almost over...

Not been a very good time taking tests especially knowing I didn't have the "correct" answers...

But nevertheless, God I will not worry and put all my trust in You!

Lord, You are more precious than silver.

Help me to always bear that in mind.

Just a thought

Spent most of today pondering...

I'm by myself most of my entire life...

At home; In school; In church...

I can safely say 90% of the time I am alone, not counting my roommate sitting behind me now...

Yup, I gave some thought about the people in my life...

My conclusion - I am living this life alone physically cause technically with God, I can't be alone at any time...

And I guess I'm really used to it and that explains why I don't really enjoy fellowships...

except for the ones that I really love and get to be ministered...but then again...

My life's pretty much a lonely, straight line =)

Grace upon Grace

A child-like faith in the everliving One, call upon His Name and He will answer.

Draw near to Him and He will draw nearer.

Those who seek Him with all their hearts will find Him.

Jesus! Jesus! Crazy for Jesus!

Stormy Storm

This specially dedicated to my previous entry...

Today I faced my first storm in Uni life...

In the knowledge that I screwed up my maths CA paper today,

all that came out in the paper was out of my expectations.

And all I had to say was negative stuff and groaning in disappointment,

God I will learn to look to You.

In this storm right now, I know with you in the boat I need not fear.

I know this doesn't mean that I don't have to put in effort on my part,

but more of working in partnership with You.

I cannot do this on my own, not for the next 3 years.

So many things crossed my past few days,

and this happens only when I'm about to have something coming up like leading worship.

Jesus, I pray that You'll carry me through this time,

May I put my trust in nothing but You alone.

In Your most precious and mighty Name

I-spy

Just went a blog-checking-out spree.

It's so interesting to see what has been happening in the lives of others,

what they are going through or their thoughts for the day,

some are eager to share their current craze while others penned down their innermost issues.

Nevertheless, this is a space where one should be free to express oneself.

As I think about this, I cannot help but reflect on my own life.

Where I am right now, where I have walked and where I am heading.

Life is definitely full of why's and doubts, but faith is the element of my life.

I am very sure if one can turn back time, we would have chosen another path, another choice.

While some choose to take the same road, others are still lost in the busyness of life.

Me? I know I am a student right now in the midst of a vicious paper-chase.

But this is temporal.

God will see me through this season, as long as I keep trusting Him.

God has already planned my future, as long as I commit that into His hands.

God has, since Jesus' sacrifice, forgiven me of my sins and past, as long as I believe in Jesus Christ.

God, the same yesterday, today and forever, will always be the same and only God.

Praise be to God, in His honour; power and majesty, who reigns forevermore!

Have you given a thought about your life yet? =)

School and Life and what else?

I suddenly thought of this...

If my life is an equation say f(x) = x^2 + cos(0.5x) ,

then I guess all the people that I knew and know and will know in my life has to intersect with my equation as some point.

This is just a matter of when and how long.

Some friends have been with me since I was really young but now, we're not close anymore.
Some friends that I have just met are great and we're still doing great =)

Some friends whom I really cherished, have faded away.

The 2 equations are now moving further away from one another as time moves along.

It seems almost impossible to see that gap narrow in the future,

but I believe God can do anything according to His will =)

Just a little bit more

Dear God, thank You for everything.

I'll never thank You, until I look back at what You have done for me.

I know You are faithful.

I know You are ever unchanging.

Today...just today...

As you smiled back at me,

it totally lit up my life.

Not that I am cooking up a big hoo-ha,

but that meant a lot to me.

O Lord, let all my desires

be nothing but Your will alone.

And as I walk this narrow road,

in the knowledge of Your great Love,

I will fear nothing. Nothing.

=)

My latest baby =))

Wireless and light plus in-ear buds...

Gives me all the reasons to start running again!

in NTU that is =))

Only 1 way

Got news today that I'm not selected for school team...

One of the biggest blows I've had since a long time...

I can't accept it but I resolved to submit to God

In every season, I'll trust in Him...

To bring me through every circumstance...

I look to You, Jesus

Love never fails

1 Cor 13 sprang up in my mind today as I sat back and reflected on the past 12 hours...

Running around; Being distracted; Inability to focus...

I was in church but that only in the physical realm...

I feel so out of place, this familiar feeling is back to haunt me...

Now I think about what can possibly happen, even in the near future...

I really dun wish for things to turn out like that...

But it seems to me that I'm living my faith only on the outside...

My ears and eyes feels like they have been shut tight...

I can almost look into the future and see myself crumbling someday...

Because I'm around all this time, but only physically...

Deep inside of me, I'm nothing but an empty shell...

Void of feelings and deprived of that sensitivity that I once knew...

It can only be the Holy Spirit;

He is my only solution and only way;

He who knows the Father truly and His plans;

To bring and lead me through this season

Rain down on me O Lord, Rain down

1 Cor. 13:10 - But when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.

Rejections

God gave His one and only Son for the people He loved...

Jesus the Savior, rejected...

I wonder how would He have felt...

I feel like a retard...

Great is our God

God, our great God...

Today I felt really really lost and disoriented...

First, I woke up really late and missed the "gap"

I felt really bad and lousy, I was debating with myself whether I should go to church

But I concluded myself that self-condemnation isn't part of God's plans...

Leading from this, I could not bring myself to lead the youth worship...

I feel unworthy, so so dejected...

I could not imagine how things will turn out in service...

So I decided to ask Rachel to lead the entire worship set...

Things went bad every now and then...

The noise bursts from my guitar channel...

The rushing for time set-up and EQ-ing...

I feel that I have let Him down...

Now I can only turn to Him in repentence...

I know one thing for sure...

God loves me and loves me the same...

I will press on and run the race...

O Lord, bring me back to You...

Let me hear Your still small, voice again

I want to know You more and more

Jesus, O Jesus how You love me

Grace of God

God is faithful though I'm faithless...

God is good even though I sinned...

God is love even though I hated...

God is the same even though I'm so different at times...

I don't know how to thank Him enough...

I don't know how to grasp His love and grace for me...

It's so, so, so wide and deep and high...

1 - NTU allowed me to apply for hall after 2 weeks of school-travelling-maddness

2 - Brother lent me his car for this week which means I don't need to bus/train

3 - I just received $xxxxx/- from my aunt...

I don't deserve such grace

But thank You Lord

Schooling

Now's almost past week 2 of my uni life...

Somehow, I can feel the weariness every now and then...no good no good...

Lectures are like the bullet trains that goes non-stop throughout the lessons...

How to catch up?!?!?

On the other hand, I really really really don't know how I got to this, but

I got to apply for hall!!

Which means my commitment to Crusade is going to be slightly off-loaded since I don't have to

"journey to the west" every morning!! Plus I can commit to my IVP team, that's if I get in =S

After all these, I can really see a glimpse of how God interverns and works according to His plans =))

I'm holding onto You...

My grades will not matter more than letting Your will be done =)

Crazy or Lazy?

Today is only day 3! day 3!

Here's some updates:

1 - Just came home at 10plus after attending crusade weekly meet-up, which is going to be marked on my calendar so I''ll be there!

2 - School timetable just isn't going to magically going to change but I believe it can be utilized to the best of me.

3 - I just received my EID briefing notes. EID is a year-long project with 7 other students to come up with a product and to fabricate/market/design it from scratch in view of May 2010's fair...Not sure what this is about, but it has certainly come as a surprise because it means more lectures and time on projects...

4 - I passed my QET so yeah! No need for redundant lesson!!!! PTL =))

I suppose after these 3 days of schooling has really challenged my faith and commitment to God. All these work/lessons/projects/assignments are pouring in like the Niagara Falls...

Nevertheless, I've learnt to keep trusting God and stay close to my Lord...

And a proof of it, these 3 days may have been long but I find myself still able to manage...

Looking to God for strength and endurance...

Lead me on O God

Pray PRAY!!

Living by grace

Now is day 2 of uni life..

Shall say things have simmered down and I thank God for bringing nice friends into my life..

Things are still very uncertain and I can't see myself ahead in a few years time..

Nevertheless, I will trust in Him who is faithful and good..

It has been a time of testing and more to come..

I'm amazed at how brittle and fragile my faith is..

Will I still be able to stand when the trials come?

Will I still be able to trust and believe in God?

Why am I even asking myself that question now?

I seriously don't know..

I find it really hard to love..

I'm single and I think I know why..

I need God's grace..Seriously

First Day of Uni life

Life in school = Hectic

I've never been so busy running around campus..

Searching for classrooms and fighting to buy the last set of notes available..

I'm glad I got through day 1, thank You God =))

Just done up my study table and filing all my notes and tutorials..

Okay maybe not all due to shortage of the notes but yeah, I'm pretty proud of myself! haha

Well it was sure crazy travelling to and fro school..

I was trying to nap on the ride home but it was hard, yet I nodded off..

Seems like that's going to be the life for the next 17 weeks or so..

God help me! I don't want to do this on my own!!

Jesus loves =))

Love: the greatest of them all

It's been an awesome Sunday...

Loved today's worship..love the team..

There was an unspoken chemistry in the team and we could worship God and still worked together..

Message was great too..Rom 5:17 talking about God's provision of grace and gift of righteousness...

This weekend has been totally enriching and fulfilling...

Training with Sparks was great, David has a gifting for the Word I must say...

Now preparing to share cell bible study seems so much clearer than before...

After service headed to Dhoby Ghaut for late-lunch with church peeps...

Persuaded to watch HP with Joel and Mabel, oh thanks Joel for the movie treat!

I didn't know dumb-ber-door was suppose to be gay ahaha...

Was nodding off every now and then in the cinema ahaha...was just too tired...

Then after movie I couldn't decide between heading home or having dinner with Joel...

The usual-me would choose the former since I'm such a loner guy...

But I believe God had a plan for me to choose the latter...

Had my fav. western @ AMK S-11...And yes, the portion has shrunk!!!

Then had an awesome time of sharing and talking with Joel...

It's totally unexpected but I guess, it's true that hanging out with friends is really great...

It was nice to talk about stuff in church and God and love...

Nothing between us, just brotherly love! hahahahaha....

Oh well, I'm convinced that I should hang out with my friends more often...

Hope so and looking forward to it...

Heard this during morning service about the church being as one...

I'm still trying to come to terms with that...

If we are meant to be as one in the body of Christ,

then why can't we resolve our differences and issues?

I'll trust in God

I'll trust in You

I'll trust in You with all my heart

El-Shaddai