If I claim to love Jesus, why do I show biased love?
If I claim His love as my anchor, why do I still fear the storms?
If I claim Jerm 29:11, why do I worry over and again over the future?
I am puzzled. If we claim not to be an eventful bunch, then why aren't we praying for revelation and yet squeezing activities out of perceived opportunities?
Too many, far too many whys to deal with. This sudden onslaught tonight must not be simply cast aside tonight as a spiritual attack. Surely and undoubtedly, the enemy is lurking around seeking any and every weakpoint in my life to bring me down.
Over and over, I've shared this point with many people. It's simply all in the mind. What we witness in the flesh, in the physical realm is the manifestation of the mind.
So yes Lord, I Have Decided.
But help me to keep my decision, and in my choices, help me make them out of reverence for You. It will be a fact that I have no spiritual parents at home but whether I will have spiritual parents, Lord God my Father You will always be my Daddy God.
My spiritual bottle seemed to have run dry almost instantly over the course of 12hours. Perhaps, it is so true that only those who are overflowing with His mercy and love are able to input the same manner of love.
It is the saddest thing in life to persistently hold onto what I think is best for me, so Lord help me to let go, and let You be God. In the season You have for me, let it be my portion as You deem best for me. But I pray that You keep me dwelling in Your House. Always.
"All my Hope is in You. With every breath, my soul will rest in You."
Love You Jesus, is all I can do.
Fill me I pray. Again.
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Faith...Once again
I look forward to the end of 2012 yet at the same time, I sense fear inside of me.
Fear of the unknown thereafter;
Fear of how things will be like in this last quarter;
Fear of how things will unfold for YAY! Camp.
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. ~ Heb. 11:6
I gather that I must first choose to move on and charge into this unknown in Faith, by Faith. Sure it could be just another career like everyone else, or perhaps something else the Lord has prepared. Either way, it is a journey into the unknown and I can only pray that I look back at His faithfulness, give thanks for His grace and mercy and keep moving forward under His guidance.
Be it a 500-megaton nuclear missile or a hiker trekking across the Himalayan Mountains, one thing for sure. They all know where they're heading for, whether by choice or by input of another. I suppose the same goes for me. It is really not so much about planning or charting the path ahead, rather to download the coordinates from the Divine One, simply for the verse Jerm. 29:11.
From schoolwork to YAY! Camp to Worship Ministry to Cell. It can often threaten to break me down.
It has been a bumpy ride in the last couple of weeks. With all the storms threatening to overturn the boat, I'm glad to be reminded. The Lord of all is onboard the very same boat I am in.
Going through the worship ministry's calendar and schedule was really a challenge from the Lord as I responded to Him on the journey home today. Was reading Steven Furtick's Sun Stand Still and felt the challenge of the Lord so strongly. Ask AUDACIOUSLY IN FAITH. If my vision in life does not intimidate me, it is probably an insult to God. I wished there'll be a solution to the issues going around. Maybe God isn't as concerned in the problem being resolved. Maybe there is something He wants to say here.
So in the evening I received and opened the worship ministry update via email. And first up was the worship duties that couldn't have been allocated on a better date, the very period of my papers. As I synchronized the various dates and events, I can only say "woah".
And to have Faith facing the coming onslaught of 'doing'. Plus it doesn't help when there are still to-do's for the camp and my ministry head already placing much expectations on this event. I have been told umpteen times to distribute the work; always being mindful what God is doing/saying. In practice, it is really tough finding that someone who is willing. Decided to trust God to provide whichever area we're lacking. That's how this camp is going to be.
A camp that will be like none before and none after, a camp that uniquely serves God's agenda for this season. A chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation. God's SPECIAL POSSESSION.
Fear of the unknown thereafter;
Fear of how things will be like in this last quarter;
Fear of how things will unfold for YAY! Camp.
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. ~ Heb. 11:6
I gather that I must first choose to move on and charge into this unknown in Faith, by Faith. Sure it could be just another career like everyone else, or perhaps something else the Lord has prepared. Either way, it is a journey into the unknown and I can only pray that I look back at His faithfulness, give thanks for His grace and mercy and keep moving forward under His guidance.
Be it a 500-megaton nuclear missile or a hiker trekking across the Himalayan Mountains, one thing for sure. They all know where they're heading for, whether by choice or by input of another. I suppose the same goes for me. It is really not so much about planning or charting the path ahead, rather to download the coordinates from the Divine One, simply for the verse Jerm. 29:11.
From schoolwork to YAY! Camp to Worship Ministry to Cell. It can often threaten to break me down.
It has been a bumpy ride in the last couple of weeks. With all the storms threatening to overturn the boat, I'm glad to be reminded. The Lord of all is onboard the very same boat I am in.
Going through the worship ministry's calendar and schedule was really a challenge from the Lord as I responded to Him on the journey home today. Was reading Steven Furtick's Sun Stand Still and felt the challenge of the Lord so strongly. Ask AUDACIOUSLY IN FAITH. If my vision in life does not intimidate me, it is probably an insult to God. I wished there'll be a solution to the issues going around. Maybe God isn't as concerned in the problem being resolved. Maybe there is something He wants to say here.
So in the evening I received and opened the worship ministry update via email. And first up was the worship duties that couldn't have been allocated on a better date, the very period of my papers. As I synchronized the various dates and events, I can only say "woah".
And to have Faith facing the coming onslaught of 'doing'. Plus it doesn't help when there are still to-do's for the camp and my ministry head already placing much expectations on this event. I have been told umpteen times to distribute the work; always being mindful what God is doing/saying. In practice, it is really tough finding that someone who is willing. Decided to trust God to provide whichever area we're lacking. That's how this camp is going to be.
A camp that will be like none before and none after, a camp that uniquely serves God's agenda for this season. A chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation. God's SPECIAL POSSESSION.
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Because it's all about You
Thank You for everything and I know You have Your very plans for us.
May my heart be concerned with loving and serving You over what others think,
cause ultimately You're what matters.
May I not just be someone who is looked up to, but someone who can be turned to in Your Name.
Let me do all things to the praise of Your glory, I am but an instrument.
So Lord, steady my heart. Steady my heart.
May my heart be concerned with loving and serving You over what others think,
cause ultimately You're what matters.
May I not just be someone who is looked up to, but someone who can be turned to in Your Name.
Let me do all things to the praise of Your glory, I am but an instrument.
So Lord, steady my heart. Steady my heart.
Sunday, September 16, 2012
What ultimately matters?
Today's MTPS really hit home.
No doubt that UFS' sharing is as always close to the heart, all that has happened today really affirmed what Ethel and I believe in doing to walk with our dear members.
From the updates on how YAY! has been to the sharing on coming YAY! camp to the surveys right up to the end of the MTPS in prayer, I could feel His presence so strongly. Though I think I could have done better for the sharing on the camp, I believe it is given from the Lord on our stewardship of the next generationS to come and the urgency in doing so.
The highlight of the session must have been the acknowledgements coming from the parents. It is really heartening to hear testimonies from various families and personally, I was on the brink of breaking down/moved to tears when one of the mothers came to me encouraging about the change she has been seeing.
In my heart, I truly rejoice. Rejoicing in the knowledge that a beloved child of God is experiencing His Love and in the spiritual warfare, we are building up one another and be mindful of what is happening to us. Nothing really beats that feeling of knowing someone you care for is reciprocating and really, it is a joyous occasion to mark down.
I foresee the days ahead may/will just get tougher. Looking at the increasing rate the world demands of us in terms of time, energy and strength, it will be an uphill task. But it should never be daunt cause in the hardest times when we can't go on anymore, we can go on our knees for the Lord is our help.
Yes things must keep running and going daily but surely, our soul care is way much more important. How pitiful that we often overlook that. Time to come back to the Lord and sit at His feet again.
No doubt that UFS' sharing is as always close to the heart, all that has happened today really affirmed what Ethel and I believe in doing to walk with our dear members.
From the updates on how YAY! has been to the sharing on coming YAY! camp to the surveys right up to the end of the MTPS in prayer, I could feel His presence so strongly. Though I think I could have done better for the sharing on the camp, I believe it is given from the Lord on our stewardship of the next generationS to come and the urgency in doing so.
The highlight of the session must have been the acknowledgements coming from the parents. It is really heartening to hear testimonies from various families and personally, I was on the brink of breaking down/moved to tears when one of the mothers came to me encouraging about the change she has been seeing.
In my heart, I truly rejoice. Rejoicing in the knowledge that a beloved child of God is experiencing His Love and in the spiritual warfare, we are building up one another and be mindful of what is happening to us. Nothing really beats that feeling of knowing someone you care for is reciprocating and really, it is a joyous occasion to mark down.
I foresee the days ahead may/will just get tougher. Looking at the increasing rate the world demands of us in terms of time, energy and strength, it will be an uphill task. But it should never be daunt cause in the hardest times when we can't go on anymore, we can go on our knees for the Lord is our help.
Yes things must keep running and going daily but surely, our soul care is way much more important. How pitiful that we often overlook that. Time to come back to the Lord and sit at His feet again.
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Decoding Life
It has been a great weekend spent.
Especially after a week of case of dengue, I believe there's just much to be thankful for.
Looking back alone on the episode I had with this dengue fever has caused me to re-think again a number of facets of life, particularly the ones that I would take for granted.
Some experiences in life is priceless, it can only be taken in by the one who goes through it.
And this week during cell, one of the member took me by surprise with his perspective and inputs.
A viewpoint that I would never imagined him sharing about, but I found myself pleasantly surprised at the maturity of sharing. For sure, I know only God is able to move so mightily in his life and the Lord will continue to work in him.
I know He has placed in my hands a bunch of people He really loves. There is probably still a lifetime of a journey ahead together and it's also about the Lord working in me. I have to acknowledge there are areas that I really suck in and I think I ought to be doing better, I guess there's just something the Lord will have to deal with me about.
Every moment of the fellowship has been of significance to me and I do not take it for granted. But on top of the time being together, I'm also constantly trying to seek the Lord for wisdom. Wisdom to decode situations, wisdom to discern.
Strangely that certain things are becoming evident and increasingly obvious. And there is a growing sense of peace within me. Surely I must cherish all these, because ultimately God I want to live out Your Purpose for my life and I'm making it a point to make that the focal point of my life.
My Love for You must take precedence over all other love in my life.
Especially after a week of case of dengue, I believe there's just much to be thankful for.
Looking back alone on the episode I had with this dengue fever has caused me to re-think again a number of facets of life, particularly the ones that I would take for granted.
Some experiences in life is priceless, it can only be taken in by the one who goes through it.
And this week during cell, one of the member took me by surprise with his perspective and inputs.
A viewpoint that I would never imagined him sharing about, but I found myself pleasantly surprised at the maturity of sharing. For sure, I know only God is able to move so mightily in his life and the Lord will continue to work in him.
I know He has placed in my hands a bunch of people He really loves. There is probably still a lifetime of a journey ahead together and it's also about the Lord working in me. I have to acknowledge there are areas that I really suck in and I think I ought to be doing better, I guess there's just something the Lord will have to deal with me about.
Every moment of the fellowship has been of significance to me and I do not take it for granted. But on top of the time being together, I'm also constantly trying to seek the Lord for wisdom. Wisdom to decode situations, wisdom to discern.
Strangely that certain things are becoming evident and increasingly obvious. And there is a growing sense of peace within me. Surely I must cherish all these, because ultimately God I want to live out Your Purpose for my life and I'm making it a point to make that the focal point of my life.
My Love for You must take precedence over all other love in my life.
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