And you're leaving on a jet plane

I had barely known the Lugao family for 2 weeks and tonight, they are enroute back home to Brazil.
Here lies one of the saddest part of the ship ministry is that everyone comes and goes pretty much all the time.

This family has been a exemplary model to many around them and I thank God for allowing our paths to cross. Though we may not have known each other well, still I thank God for knowing this family and pray that God will bless and use this family greatly for His glory.

L4D

As of tonight, I am thoroughly done with the way things are being handled.
A personal experience is probably all I need.

The least I expected was a lending of helping hand, not hypocrisy.
My heart goes out to those who are being played out. Least God is for you.

I've always been wondering.
And now it got me to wonder even more.
Surely, it has just made me a more "wonderful" person.

To sum up what I feel it's happening right now:

Purpose Driven Life

PDL. One of the best sold titles and popular among the churches for its very message.

What on earth am I here for?

It is exactly what has been bothering me for quite some time.

With different views of life and influences, it seems meaningless to live on.

It seems like lying down eternally is a better choice.

And it doesn't help being alone, physically especially.

Though I'm surrounded by many most of the time, it is just different.

And as the days go by, as beloved ones fade away one by one, 

I find no one to turn to, feel so helpless and devastated at times recently.

I can't seem to get things done.

Properly.

Nothing seems to be that way.

I know I ought to turn back in His grace.

I know He is there awaiting with open arms.

I know He is ever faithful.

I know He loves.

But I guess I only know.

I may have not experienced it myself.

Lost.