Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Serve God, not Money

Just had a momentary thought...

Am I serving too much? Should I devote my time to studying instead?

Been having so many people coming to tell me that I'm serving too much,
does that mean I should serve less...

And I noticed that I've been giving up very much of my time to Church. Not God but Church.
Time to the cells. Time to the worship team. Time to the meetings.
Should I just focus on my studies this season instead?

Talking about these two points above are my heartfelt thoughts this season.

Cell people are just not into God nor His Kingdom...
Despite how hard I try to pursue them, it feels fruitless.
And perhaps if I give my time to studying instead, I can glorify Him with my grades right...
Isn't that what most people around have in mind?

Reconciliation between members-in-Christ seems impossible...
Pastor preached the message of God being First Love,
that in Christ we ought to live in love for one another...
Somehow I cannot bring myself to agree...
I've given up on that long ago...

These past months, I've interacted and seen a lot bunch of my peers and YA
having other plans...
Some already have made the move...Some already have the plan to move...
Some still considering the move...Some not longer in the Faith even...

The rest? I'm not sure how many will remain...

God, I'm at a loss...I don't know what I'm doing or what You're doing...

Is it really all worth when You come back again...

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