Modern Levite

9 more days...That's all I have left. Been 9 days since I last updated.

1 Sept: Church 35th Anniversary. This time was really a mistake to involve in 2 sections, I felt really stretched and tired after the celebrations. Somehow, they were all in the midst of my season of disappointments. I can say I was actually "acting" for the celebrations because no way I could give thanks to God after all that had happened. Once again, drained out after the celebrations.

I've been running away from God since the time I failed my pilot interview and subsequently, driving test. I could not accept the fact that He's taken the things of my desires away. It's been a year of rejections already. I can only hope in Jerm. 29:11 that He had plans to give me hope. I really need the hope soon.

A spiritual uplift would be at Modern Levites Conference at FCBC. I had no expectations or heart to listen when I signed up, but somehow God said a lot through the conference. The first verse I heard at the opening ceremony: You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

It just broke down the barriers inside my heart instantly. I have not been seeking God for a very very long time, as if a thirsty man who refuse to look for water. For 3 days of the conference, I learnt a lot on worship and going through Abraham and Isaac in a different point of view has taught me a lot. Moses and Joshua as well, the battles that were won if the men of faith kept their arms up high in the Name of the Lord.

I have not been holding my faith up high in times of battles/crisis. Perhaps all these desires have been clouding out God and gaining more importance than God that probably, better for me not to have been successful. It's so difficult to humble oneself again.

Some of you are going to be leaders/men of faith in unusual places.

I wonder if that was for me since I'm going into NS really soon.

I really pray/hope to come back to the Lord. It's been far too long a dry season and I thank God for the people in my life who have been there when I am at my lowest, I really appreciate you guys.

Nic: Unknowingly my spiritual role model and guidance in my walk with God. To remind me that someone out that is living for God despite all his short-comings and prayer breaks any obstacles in our ways.

Serene: My best friend. Giving me the encouragement when I really needed it. Though we have not been talking to each other for quite some time, but I'll still remember your kind words.

Ethel: Yup, I will keep in mind of your reminder. I'll try my best to keep them.

Things don't necessarily go the way you want them to be.