Ahoy

To discover new grounds, is to leave the shoreline. and I look forward to the journey before me. Maybe it's staying put, maybe it's a call to move away. Whatever it maybe, I know I want it Your way more than anything.

So lead me Lord, lead me as You will. Renew my faith to follow You. Regardless.

Keeps for life.

It's been 48 hours, but it is still so fresh in my memory.

That last dinner with her; that last phone call to her; that last glimpse of her breathing.

Now she's gone, I know it'll take a while but she can never leave my heart.

My Birthday Present to 阿妈

Sunday Dinners will never be the same again.

Ah Gong & Ah Ma

Treasures of my heart

I am still in shock though it's been a week now.

阿嬷，

一路好走。

孙子，阿杨敬上。

Capacitated.

I choose to believe You have capacitated me for this season, for a reason.

I choose to believe I will not hit a burn out in the arms of Your loving arms. I will rest easy.

I choose to believe You are stretching me far beyond my expectations, beyond my comfort zone.

I choose to believe that even in the pains and sorrows, there is joy when I choose to look Your way.

So I pray,

For the sake of the world, 

Burn like a fire in me.

Light a flame in my soul,

For every eye may see.

To be a fool for You,

To give You my youth.

A season of seeds to sow,

And I want to keep my soul.

Take my life, and let it be.

According to Your Will.

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Much more expectations have been put in my way. Time to be reminded, to live worthy of him and pleasing to Him, not Man.

Listen & Discern

When You're not speaking, I know You're listening. It really stirred within me how things are unfolding these past weeks & months.

It seems pretty obvious at some point yet at another, it doesn't. It's kind of like staring through the window on a misty day. Some signs are clearly showing me that You are opening a door for me to the next chapter of my life. Yet rationalization creeps into my mind & questions bombard me.

I will choose to wait upon You & seek You. As much as it excites me & is stirring within me a calling, I want to know it's according to Your plan for me.

Reason or season, this is my prayer. I surrender; let all my desires and all I desire be Your Will in my life.

Things I don't understand

So yes God, Church Camp 2013 has come to an end.
But I know You were in our midst the whole time, even during the Leaders' R&R.


Somethings interesting happened this camp and I'm not sure what You're doing.
But I know I will stand by Your last word to me, and I will wait on You.

Living life on top.

You hold my future in Your hands

Lord I surrender, my agenda, my will.

Times like this I find myself at a crossroad; a cross junction. Maybe some get stuck here not knowing which route to take; some get lost assuming their sense of direction is right.

Mine? Is to constantly seek Your counsel. And when you stay silent, it is the same principle as any instructor has, stay on the course.

So God I pray in the exciting times and in the stressful times ahead, keep me sane and keep me saint, that wherever I maybe, my life be a projection of You.