Elite for Jesus

To live for Christ as though a special operative...to go against all that oppose His plans...

You probably ain't seeing things, the Mexican Special Ops carrying Barrett in parade!!!
Now since Joel thinks I'm a hamster on cocaine, this is the closest pic I can find to fit the bill!

Still don't get it

I may never understand...

Unforgiveness of a person can supercede God's love...

=S

Please don't go

And it's all happening for real.

What was hinted to us months back was thought of as a passing-remark.
It never occurred to any of us at any time that it was coming.
I knew I had to treasure the moments, the teachings and the experiences.
I just never expected the end to be so near.

Nevertheless, I will hold on.
I will stay strong.
Because of your legacy and your "fatherhood" to me,
I will live my life out in gratitude and appreciation.

I will give my life to a Purpose and a Calling.
Thanks from the bottom of my heart,
You have made a difference in my life.
God bless =)

Trust

If there is one lesson I ought to learn, trust.


To put my trust in no Man but God alone.

Move away.

Those whom God hath joined together...

O ETERNAL God, Creator and Preserver of all mankind, Giver of all spiritual grace, the Author of everlasting life; Send thy blessing upon these thy servants, this Man and this Woman, whom we bless in thy Name; that, as Isaac and Rebecca lived faithfully together, so these persons may surely perform and keep the vow and covenant betwixt them made, (whereof this Ring given and received is a token and pledge,) and may ever remain in perfect love and peace together, and live according to thy laws; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.


Those whom God hath joined together let no man put asunder.



GOD the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Ghost, bless, preserve, and keep you; the Lord mercifully with his favour look upon you; and so fill you with all spiritual benediction and grace, that ye may so live together in this life, that in the world to come ye may have life everlasting. Amen.


Today was Sharon's big day, and many of us were there to witness this joyous occasion. Through the time of catching up with many old friends and seeing familiar faces, I began to run through in my mind how my wedding day would turn out to be...


Yet of cause, I am reminded again that in whatever I should do, it should be according to His Will. And I pray that in such "big" matters,  that I wait upon the Lord and trust in His faithfulness and goodness. Whether in marriage or in singlehood, I can still be an instrument for God and honour Him. 


But by the day, my heart grows fonder. I will trust in God.
In every consideration, I can hardly find another. Yet I will trust in God.
Seeking counsel and praying, I know it is a choice favoured by many. Still I will trust in God.

Lord teach me. Teach me to wait upon You.
To love You first. So that in turn, I may love my to-be-wife as You love me.
Amen.

No Turning Back

The Cross before me, the World behind me
The Cross before me, the World behind me
The Cross before me, the World behind me
No turning back, no turning back

Faith

"Live simply so that others may simply live"


As I listen to Pastor Chua's sermon, it just reminds me so much of the importance of leading a God-centered life.
Not only leading a God-centered life in living, even simply reading His word is to read His word with a God-centered mindset and revolving the focus on God.

The method of contrast in Psalm 1 is a timely reminder of abiding in Him; to look to Him rather than what He can give.
Many reminders are simple and straightforward, but they were mostly forgotten.

My prayer this coming week is to coming back to my first love, Jesus.
It is really difficult and tiring with so much on hand.
I don't foresee a smooth journey ahead, but I am assured of a destination.

I pray O God that You keep me in Your ways, that You will not turn Your face away from me.
Open my blinded eyes to see, open my deafened ears to hear.
Soften my heart to feel Your love, Your Great love.

Faith.
Faith in God has prevailed and will still prevail.
Teach me Lord, to continue to trust in You.
In Jesus' Name.
Amen.

Need You More and More

Purpose Driven Life

PDL. One of the best sold titles and popular among the churches for its very message.

What on earth am I here for?

It is exactly what has been bothering me for quite some time.

With different views of life and influences, it seems meaningless to live on.

It seems like lying down eternally is a better choice.

And it doesn't help being alone, physically especially.

Though I'm surrounded by many most of the time, it is just different.

And as the days go by, as beloved ones fade away one by one, 

I find no one to turn to, feel so helpless and devastated at times recently.

I can't seem to get things done.

Properly.

Nothing seems to be that way.

I know I ought to turn back in His grace.

I know He is there awaiting with open arms.

I know He is ever faithful.

I know He loves.

But I guess I only know.

I may have not experienced it myself.

Lost.

UN - expected

These few days been an emotional roller coaster and has got me thinking about my future.

Also, the challenge was brought up.

Do you want a good life?


So I thought to myself, what is my definition of a good life.

Well I'm still learning to take things positively and learn as much as I can out of every experience.
Because of Jerm. 29:11, I can rejoice and hope in the Lord.
Because of John 3:16, I am reassured in the Lord.

Simply because of who He is, I can rely on Him to lord over my life.

On a side note, I re-contacted a dear friend who went MIA for some time.
I'm glad we talked; I'm glad we'll get to meet up soon; I'm grateful for this opportunity.

Lord, use me. Amen.

Choices

Seems like everyone around me chooses to do what they want.
Regardless whether it is aligned with the plans of God, or there's even a God,
people I know get to choose what they want.

So should I likewise?
It is such a struggle, especially with my current point in life.
A time when everyone around is saying no, perhaps I should too?
But yet, I know I won't say no because if I do, there won't be anyone left.

=( It's discouraging not because I have to "ta" but
what's our priorities? Do we choose the easy way out?

I feel like doing so already.

I choose not to sigh.
I choose to look to God.
Show me why, why I'm going through this season.

Fall into place

If there's one thing I learnt definitely about God, it's that all things will fall into place in His timing to come.
He will see to it; He will bring it to pass.

As a friend says, perfect love casts out all fears.
And I say Amen to that!

=)

Will of God

Pray Thy will be done.
What if God's will is not what I asked for?

How would you handle it?

Faith

Thanks for being faithful despite my faithlessness.

Always been an encounter with you, never fails to surprise me.

Now I lay my hopes all behind me,

Because it seems that hope leads to disappointments.

Not that it is from Your word at all,

Just what I am feeling this season.

Stretch me, pull me, as far as You can,

I hope I'll never snap because you know my limits.

And I guess I'm coming to the end of the road,

Just shows how much I can do without You.

It's all wrong, I know.

I hope I'm wrong.

Yes.

Band of Brothers

The gang of five started out one day,

Hey, let's form a band!

And then on, after the first and last band jam,

an accountability group was formed.

The group eventually had an addition,

all the way from the States.

The group of 6 met pretty occasionally,

Heartfelt sharing over pizza or prata was the norm.

As time went by,

people got busier and hence meetings was lesser.

Slowly but surely, the meetings became less frequent,

Yet thank God, sharing finally grew deeper.

Then one by one, people started fading away.

For the good or the bad,

I'll never know.

One thing I know, Satan has and always will be working very hard.

O Lord, now I'm close to losing my closest brothers-in-Christ.

Indeed Love is the greatest of all.

Lord, then where is the love You gave?

I beg You, to remind us of our undeserved Grace and Mercy.

Lord, put Your Hand in this O God.

I know You are able.

~Praying~

Nothing is for sure

Being a Christian for 5 years now,

I must say it isn't as expected.

The qualities that God tells us and the ones that we exhibit,

no wonder we will never be perfect.

And the count is ongoing,

as days go by,

I count the number of friends and people I know,

Slowly but surely, they drift away.

I can't put into words my anguish,

my sorrow and pain.

As I think of them, each one of them.

How we laughed, how we debated.

How we shared our heartfelt thoughts.

If you have ever been a friend or known me,

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I did not cherish the chance to know you better.

I'm sorry I did not take the opportunity to be a mentor in Christ to you.

I'm sorry I did not share your ups and downs when you needed someone.

I'm sorry I failed to see the importance of keeping in touch with you.

I'm sorry I failed to consider your feelings in my speech and actions.

I failed; again and again.

Can You, God do something?Will You?

I cry out to You because each one of them matters to You.

Because if they don't, then there's no point in me believing.

Show Yourself true Lord, I cry out to You.

Below is for you, every one of you who are my friend.

Though you may never read this.

Nic - You have been a tremendous role model to me since I got to know you better. The days of goofing around on our guits. The moments we shared our hearts out. The times we spent chilling out or playing pool. The super sinful suppers we used to have in the past. If I can just allow you to read my mind, to tell you how much you have benefited to my life and taught me much through your living. Wherever you may be heading in the near future, thanks Nic. And I hope our friendship can emerge from this season stronger than before, not broken nor strained by whatever has happened. May God work in you and through you always.

Alvin - Since the first time I knew you, I always held you in high regards. Initially cause of your wings and knowing that we share so much in common, except that you're a liverpool fan, I thank God for the friendship we have. Now having known you better, I learnt to appreciate your heart for God the Father and how you have been trusting Him, especially with the seasons you had to go through. No doubt you may be worshiping elsewhere, I pray that Jesus will remain in your life as you live each day victorious for Him. Thank you for the many advices, encouragements and times we spent together, especially the insane night outs hunting each other (in a virtual world).

John Ho - For your laughter that infects everyone in the same room as you. For your kindness in opening up your place for our gatherings. For your willingness to bless others with a lift home always unfailingly. For your heart of service to God when you were in WRPF. I thank you and thank God for you. I pray that wherever you are now, that you will keep walking strongly in Him and always ready and wanting to go and share His love with someone you meet. Thank you John.

Matthew Chee - Bro, it's amazing how we've grown closer just over mere few years. Through the times we spent together and the stayovers where we shared our laments. The times we just sat down and poured out our thoughts and issues to one another. The times we came together every Sat to pray for the church and others. The times we decide to go for supper or a movie or a gathering with the common few others. They're embedded in my mind and they will stay. For your coming into my life and sharing my burdens, especially when I really struggled, thanks.

As you come to make decisions in your life in time to come, I pray that your decisions will be nothing but pleasing to the Lord and God alone.

Justin Lim - I have kept your card and always. It was a big encouragement for me and it still is. I have placed it right in front of me on my desk, as a reminder of being a blessing as God blesses. I thank you also, and your family, for your willingness to open up your place for us to hang around. For the mouth-drooling dishes your family whips up for us every time we come over. For the times we stayed over and your family still warmly welcomed us. I pray that NS is just a phase for you to see what God is doing in your life and teaching you. I have not seen you around frequently and yes, it saddens me. I yearn to see you back again. Not just physically in church but back into the love of Jesus. The man who died for us. The God who loves you. Miss you around Justin, hope to see you real soon.

Sam Goh - I can still remember the night we had watch night at Pasir Ris before I left for Sri Lanka. The night I sat with Justin and you. The night that never left my memories. All your joy and laughter, your randomness of jokes and theories. I thank God for you, for you coming into my life. Though I have not got to see you around for quite some time, know that I still remember you. Not just a friend, but a brother in Christ. For whatever reasons, God still loves you the same. He loved and He loves you.

Cornelius - Warm and friendly guy. Outspoken. Fun. That's you. The night I popped by to wish you happy birthday with a cake and visiting you. I want you to know I did it because you matter to me. How much more you matter to Jesus who died for us. I pray for you brother, for you to fall in love with Jesus day after day. Nothing this world can offer will satisfy our hunger, only Jesus can. God bless brother.

Brian - Your quietness is ever the same. But I am confident that God can use you and empower you as you trust Him and give yourself to Him. Though we don't get to meet much, I want to apologize for not making an effort to know you better. My lack of concern for you. My failure to treasure you. But I know that is always reconciliation. I pray you'll remain in Him always.

Shawn Ng - I have known you for quite some time already. Watching you grow up from a scrawny boy to now a good looking handsome young man, I thank God for you. For the letter of commitment you wrote to me once. How much you yearn to see God pour forth Himself, His love over young people. As you take the stage, as you get involved in competitions and pageants, know that as long as you love Jesus, do anything. And I am always here to give you my support and I want to know you better. I wish I can mentor you more. May you come to Him in full surrender as He reveals to you, the plans He has for you. He loves you.

Lionel - You've been a great brother and fellow musician. Your gift in music and your passion for God as you have grown so much recently. Since your departure from WRPF, does not equate that you're forgotten. You've been an encouragement and still are. May God abide in you always as you live each day. Be the "Bullet for Jesus", remember? =)

Julian - Your wackiness is one of a kind. I have yet to meet someone as fun as you. As bold as you. For your courage and boldness, I believe God will use you mightily. We may not see each other often as before, we may not get to agree on certain points. But we in Christ, bear one another in love. Brother may you grow ever stronger in the Lord and rock on for Jesus.

Matthias - Your charisma is ever-overwhelming. You're always a people-person. Having worked with you in let God let go has been a memorable time. Though you're not here already, I really wish I could have got to know you better and be a better friend. Wherever you are now, that God is watching over you always.

Tim Chan - Thank you for the times of serving together. Your charm and your sporty-ness I'll always remember. Your ability to take a step back and analyze situations. The times we spent together on a Myanmar mission. I pray you're doing well in wherever you are.

Jabez - Your multiple talents has always been a blessing. May you grow faithfully in Christ wherever you may be. Your talents be a blessing to the family God puts you in.

Jason - For your curiosity and questions and queries. May you settle and fit in to whichever family of God that you find. I pray that you'll find and experience the revelation of His Love.

Peng Chen - Has been good knowing you and sharing with you issues. Hope you'll have a yearning to grow in love with Jesus and spur on others around. You're a wonderful friend to know and I'll always cherish that.

Serene - Best friend. Though you're no longer coming, know that your cheerfulness and smiles are not forgotten. You've been a bundle of joy and I pray that you keep walking in Him.

Pearlyn - Great to have you in my cell for the times you were here. Seen you grew over the years and I thank God you've made a decision to settle in a family of Christ. May you grow ever stronger in Christ who strengthens you day to day.

Leaving on a Jet Plane

And tonight, I sent off one of my closest friend I made in NTU.

Fellow crusader. Sister in Christ.

This post shall be dedicated to you Sharon =)

Thanks for being an encouragement and the times of sharing.

For being so understanding and accommodating.

When I was joyous and when I was down,

you were there to share the times with me.

Now as you embark on this exciting semester of adventure,

know that you are in my prayers.

The Lord knows the plans He has for you,

plans to prosper you and not to harm you.

I look forward now to your return soon =)

And on the other hand, another two of my closer friends are returning next week.

Time sure zoomed pass, it's as though it all happened last week.

The moment of departure is still afresh in the back of my mind.

Now I'm anticipating the week ahead to come.

Nevertheless, I'm feeling the reality of a friend's departure,

as in a friend who is leaving for an extended period of time.

Now I know I'll have to learn to cope with more of such changes in my life to come,

but I just cannot help but wonder what it is like and if I am the one who is leaving.

Not that I would leave and never return.

But maybe will God call me into a foreign land to reap His Harvest?

Maybe with a given partner of His Will?

Maybe for the longest time ever, He will send me?

Lord I trust in Your character and Your goodness.

In that, You have the best for me despite the circumstances I am in.

To look to You in each and every moment of my life,

and go down on my knees in surrender to Your Will for me.

Jesus, take pleasure with my life, my offering, my everything.

Going and gone

As days go by,

I'm saying more goodbyes.

It has been 5 years

I'm glad I'm still here

I miss the many faces I used to see

Perhaps it's just not meant to be

Turning Point

How much do you cherish life? Your life?

Just had a busy week in church and school...

Today's suppose to end on a high note...

Just came on FB only to heard that a friend just lost her only remaining family member...

Just like that...

No signs...

Gone...

Lord teach me to appreciate life is fragile...

Life's not all about pursuing after meaningless goals...

Now that the friend is all alone...

I pray, Lord PLEASE reach out to her

Turning Point

How much do you cherish life? Your life?

Just had a busy week in church and school...

Today's suppose to end on a high note...

Just came on FB only to heard that a friend just lost her only remaining family member...

Just like that...

No signs...

Gone...

Now that the friend is all alone...

I pray, Lord PLEASE reach out to her