Choices

Seems like everyone around me chooses to do what they want.
Regardless whether it is aligned with the plans of God, or there's even a God,
people I know get to choose what they want.

So should I likewise?
It is such a struggle, especially with my current point in life.
A time when everyone around is saying no, perhaps I should too?
But yet, I know I won't say no because if I do, there won't be anyone left.

=( It's discouraging not because I have to "ta" but
what's our priorities? Do we choose the easy way out?

I feel like doing so already.

I choose not to sigh.
I choose to look to God.
Show me why, why I'm going through this season.