Come and Go

Just sent off Yong En for his mission trip.

Come to think of it, I have been to the airport in the last few months more than I have had in the 24 years of my life. Seeing people off, receiving people or even flying off myself.

Coming and going has seem to be such a routine that I have to constantly remind myself that even if someone is leaving for a 3day trip, I should never take for granted that the person is leaving and able to come back safely. Also for myself, to acknowledge God's faithfulness and protection over me when I travel. Because we never know when the matchstick of our lives burns out and we're taken home in the blink of an eye.

It'll be 43 hours to my departure. My longest time away from Singapore, away from home, away from my family as well as my spiritual family. People I've been so used to seeing so often, people I may or may not have taken for granted. I'm still asking God my objective for this trip. I know I've signed up for Hillsong Conference. I know I've committed to stay in Sisterhood for 3 weeks thereafter. But time waits for no one (other than Joshua in the Bible). And I really don't want to miss out what the Lord has prepared for me.

I suppose the most vital thing for me is to constantly remain in the NOW-ness. Be it in the midst of a crowd of worshippers or by myself in the center of God's natural creation, I'll maintain a posture of being in the NOW with Him. I'm still afraid of penning down my expectations because I may blind myself to what He wants to reveal to me. In a way, I'm in a fix!

Nevertheless, I will simply go in faith and be in the NOW! =D

Side note: God has been really gracious to me and faithful in providing. Just when I settled in my mind to live with 500AUD for the time there, how You've provided at least 1000SGD for me. How every debt I have is cleared and every expense along the way has been met by Your grace. O Lord, teach me truly to live with no more or less but be satisfied in You. My heart gives thanks to You for Your Goodness and Kindness.

Thank You Abba.

Leaving on a Jet Plane

And tonight, I sent off one of my closest friend I made in NTU.

Fellow crusader. Sister in Christ.

This post shall be dedicated to you Sharon =)

Thanks for being an encouragement and the times of sharing.

For being so understanding and accommodating.

When I was joyous and when I was down,

you were there to share the times with me.

Now as you embark on this exciting semester of adventure,

know that you are in my prayers.

The Lord knows the plans He has for you,

plans to prosper you and not to harm you.

I look forward now to your return soon =)

And on the other hand, another two of my closer friends are returning next week.

Time sure zoomed pass, it's as though it all happened last week.

The moment of departure is still afresh in the back of my mind.

Now I'm anticipating the week ahead to come.

Nevertheless, I'm feeling the reality of a friend's departure,

as in a friend who is leaving for an extended period of time.

Now I know I'll have to learn to cope with more of such changes in my life to come,

but I just cannot help but wonder what it is like and if I am the one who is leaving.

Not that I would leave and never return.

But maybe will God call me into a foreign land to reap His Harvest?

Maybe with a given partner of His Will?

Maybe for the longest time ever, He will send me?

Lord I trust in Your character and Your goodness.

In that, You have the best for me despite the circumstances I am in.

To look to You in each and every moment of my life,

and go down on my knees in surrender to Your Will for me.

Jesus, take pleasure with my life, my offering, my everything.