P.S. I Love You

By this all men will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.

~ John 13:35

L4D

As of tonight, I am thoroughly done with the way things are being handled.
A personal experience is probably all I need.

The least I expected was a lending of helping hand, not hypocrisy.
My heart goes out to those who are being played out. Least God is for you.

I've always been wondering.
And now it got me to wonder even more.
Surely, it has just made me a more "wonderful" person.

To sum up what I feel it's happening right now:

Reflection

One thing I need to learn ~ reflect

Instead of looking out of the window, to learn to see my own reflection in the glass.

Bugged

It always puzzles me why my blog always attracts weird taggers and comments...

Nevertheless, to all you weird people out there:

~You are not dealing with someone who is a computer-idiot.
For a start: To whoever you are who tagged my board tonight, do not think you can hide.
I know your physical location so please leave my blog alone.

A New Found Love

I was lost, but now am found.
Grace was given, as I looked toward Heaven.
Lord Jesus Christ, God's Greatest Sacrifice.
As I looked to the Cross, tears fill my eyes.

The Lord challenged me as I prayed on Sunday:
God gave His One and only Son for us,
why is it that we give our love to the world instead?
 
Therefore I, the prisoner of the Lord, implore you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling with which you have been called,
with all humility and gentleness, with patience, showing tolerance for one another in love,
being diligent to preserve the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.
There is one body and one Spirit, just as also you were called in one hope of your calling;
one Lord, one faith, one baptism,
one God and Father of all who is over all and through all and in all.
But to each one of us grace was given according to the measure of Christ's gift.

Eph. 4:1-7

Next Level

This has been on my mind for quite some time already, but I guess it'll still be quite a while before I get my answer.

I feel like I'm reaching the next level.
Quite like choosing which potential school to enrol in.
Like having to choose the next phone to use.
Like having to decide if bread/kopi or Big Breakfast.

Nevertheless, I'm trusting God and I know whatever choices I make,
that the Lord has prepared it before I knew.
Whatever it is, I pray that it'll be glorifying to You Lord.
Here is my willing heart, I give it all to You.

=)

Day 5 of Power Encounter

This was a really strange encounter. One that was seriously unexpected.


A Chinese student who happens to be my hall neighbour came knocking on my door.
My room mate wasn't around so I got to chat with him. Apparently he's looking for a potential room mate for the coming new semester. I was initially uninterested because I thought my current room mate was going to apply with me.

Who knows God's timing can never be more perfect...

The next day I realized that my room mate applied to stay alone!

That meant that I would be staying with someone unknown!

Well to sum it up, I believe it wasn't a coincidence that the Chinese dude came by to ask for a room mate and the next day, me finding out that I'm going to be alone!

God, what are you saying?

Day 4 of Power Encounter

Wednesday.

The 3rd most looked-forward-to day of the week this season! Why?

Just ask any YAY! Ministry leader!

Arrived early at HV to catch Rachel Chan studying at Starbucks! Then we adjourned over for dinner and fellowship. Dinner was just WOOOOO, or maybe because I was starving! But thanks anyway to Aunt Agnes and her able assistants/kids!

Helped David with worship later in the night. I am delighted to always be reminded of how in the body of Christ, our strengths and weaknesses always complement each other to give God the Glory He deserves. And I thank God for gift to minister in the area of worship, and I pray for more to come, as well as the grace to work on the aspects that I'm weak in such as leading a study on the Word =S

It was surely an anointed time as we fellow shipped and processed Sunday's sermon. Thanks to Donnie who led us all in a new and refreshing way of applying the Publishing-Processing-Generalizing-Applying method! For those who have no clue what this is, you'll be surprised at just how fun this new method is!

Then we had a little bit of planning and updating about the cells and ministry. Very important take away for the night was to be mindful of the members' spiritual walk!

And overall, I would say it was a wonderful time of fellowship with God and God's people. Oh, how apt to say that 1 day in the House of God is better than a 1000 days in the world!

Day 3 of Power Encounter

The past 2 days have been an awesome time of encounters that God has brought into my life. And Tuesday wasn't quite as expected.

I was supposed to meet Alvin and Xue Xin for worship practice due for Justin/Jasmine's wedding. I went to meet Xue Xin first and I actually went with a mindset of no expectancy of any encounters, but I suppose God's timing is always mysterious.

Though it was a long journey all the way from NTU, we managed to meet up and had fellowship over dinner. It was a lot of Engineering talk over the table but definitely a good time of fellowship, especially not seeing Alvin for quite some time already.

Then we adjourned for worship practice and as we started practising after a word of prayer, the entire practice wasn't exactly a practice. Alvin and Xue Xin were worshipping the Lord and the songs were soon not the focus.

The presence of God came and lingered. We played and sang but it didn't really matter if a note was out or the sequence was not in order. We just flowed with the leading of the Spirit. Before we knew it, time caught up with us and it was past ten already.

We managed to cover the songs required and as we left church, we all agreed we should continue the fellowship over supper! Hence coupled with some POWER Nasi Lemak, we headed over to Boon Lay Place Market and decided to not let the long queue dissuade us from some real good food!

Over food, we had a good time of catching up again and I must say, worshipping on Tuesday night was really liberating! And a verse this week reminded me:

Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.
~ 2 Cor 3:17

And I was reminded of John 4:24 ~ God is spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.

All in all, worshipping God musically is worshipping Him in Spirit and in Truth.
Without both of these, I am only offering a Lip Service unto God.

And I pray that whenever I worship Him, it will be in Spirit and in Truth!

Day 2 of Power Encounter

As I reflected upon Sunday's encounter, I prayed that I would continue to be sensitive to the Lord and that the busyness in my daily life will not distract me.

On Monday, I took up Our Daily Bread and the devotion was on loving others. The passage for the day was from 1 John 4 and the passage was on verse 7 - Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God.

This verse has all along been on my heart but it never really stood out to me and nothing was special about it until the evening. When I was reading another devotion from Word for Today. The devotion also spoke on 1 John 4:7 although the devotion differed slightly.

I know in me that God is saying something to me since what are the odds that 2 devotions pointed out the same verse. Am still seeking Him about this though.

1 very interesting point on this verse repeated to me! This is the exact verse of the Year for me! That's why! God is reminding me again...

Certain issues in the cell was brought to my attention and it breaks my heart. I'm sure it breaks God's heart too. Why can't Man put aside our own agenda for God's agenda? If we can't, then why claim to be followers of Christ?

Stark reminder for myself: To never be a hypocrite and to live out my faith. If I say I love God but have not loved, then I have not loved God at all. May I ever be the fool for God, especially in the most trying times of my life. Lord may I never choose the easy way out and dishonour You. Help me to live that life of obedience and faith despite the temptations all around me. Only in Jesus' Name I have this assurance.

Power Encounters

Funny how it all seems to be orchestrated perfectly.

Just last Saturday we were doing application for the sermon preached last week and the accountability was to pray and watch for power encounters with God through this week.

Honestly I wasn't expecting to be facing any power encounters. But it really amazes me how God works in mysterious ways.

On Sunday after service and having celebrated Grace's surprise birthday, I noticed Grace's friend, Joshua sitting all by himself at the front of the worship hall. I smiled at him and he smiled back. Unexpectedly, my body went into an auto mode and I found myself sitting beside him. In my mind, I was just about to walk away, busy distributing cakes for Grace.

The next thing I knew, Joshua was sharing with me all about him and it definitely was quite a lot on his heart. Deep inside me, I was praying and asking God to help me to be sensitive and hear Joshua's sharing.

Half an hour on and Grace was telling Joshua that she's leaving for lunch. I thought Grace was going to wait for him but when Joshua and I prepared to leave, Grace had already left. I found Joshua all by himself outside the church carpark, alone, and seemingly lost.

Here's the 2nd encounter and I knew God wanted me to do something. I had intended to go lunch with Donnie/Jean/Jude after bumping into them outside church. But God had a different agenda for me. Donnie had to meet up with Jude nearby church and after I got through to Grace over the phone, I knew God wanted me to accompany Joshua to City Hall.

On our way to City Hall from walking to church to taking the MRT to walking to M.O.F. , Joshua was doing the talking and sharing like 99% of the time? I was praying inside me for the Lord to use me; to hear Joshua and his struggles.

We met Grace and the rest at MOF and after about an hour, the rest had to leave for various reasons. I volunteered to stay behind as Joshua had not finished his drink (he was sharing with Grace the whole time what he was trying to share with me). I had a quiz the next day, but I trust God to use me to be there for Joshua.

And so we stayed on for about another hour at MOF and me hearing more of Joshua. Toward the end, he was very curious and inquisitive about YAY! Ministry, that gave me a chance to share more about our ministry to him but I felt I could have done better. Before we left the cafe, I took the leap of faith to share with him what God is putting in my heart to minister to him. He was thankful and remarked that he really desire to come back to God's love.

All in all, it was a great time being just a listening ear to a brother I barely knew that day. And I truly believe that was what Jesus would have done too. To be lovingly there for a brother when I could have chosen to walk away many times.

I thank God for this opportunity and I pray that Joshua will begin to encounter God as well in his walk with Jesus. I am sure God is doing greater things in our midst in the days to come. Let us press on and persevere no matter what comes our way, for our victory is in Christ alone!

Thank God It's Friday

A production ~ Who Killed J? is a semi-mime put together by the talents of World Revival Prayer Fellowship.

This play is intended to bring across the message/idea of Good Friday and why we have a declared public holiday on this particular Friday.

Happening on 22 Apr 2011 @ Geylang Lorong 27A. Interested now? You know how to contact me =)

What are words

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone    ~Chris Medina: What Are Words


Another secular song.
One human to another.
A promise to be there.
Penned down in a song just for the beloved one.


Just reminds me of how much more God loves you and I.
At the same time, I'm reminded of loving others around me as He loves me.
Though I may be far, I still care.
Though I don't say, I still care.

So as long as I live, I live in the faith; in the Spirit.
Lord, humble me and teach me to love as You love.
Friend or Foe, help me and give me the grace to say "Jesus loves you"
For I die to myself once again, that I may live in You.
You and You alone.

Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God.  ~ 1 John 4:7

DJ Got Us Falling in Love Again

The song DJ got us falling in love again is actually a secular song.
Well I suppose in my case, it's Jesus got me falling in love again

Just as the past weeks I was praying and hoping for a turning point in my spiritual walk, this weekend's experience was definitely a God-given solution!

Though I wasn't exactly walking through the valley of the shadow of Death, I knew within me that I was drifting away from the Lord. My heart was not as sensitive; the Spirit within me had a deep longing and hunger.

This weekend was a series of activities back to back, and I meant it!
Friday night - YAY! leaders retreat
Friday night to Sat morning - Night Cycling Rally
Sat morning to evening - YAY! leaders retreat

This 36 hour marathon took a toll on me..
After dinner, I knocked out on my bed but thank God, I managed to wake up early for service today.

At the retreat was a wonderful time of fellowship, with Him and others.
It also put a smile in my heart on other matters but shall not be shared here! =P

A movie and reviewing it was never so much fun and experience before!
Under the wonderful guidance of Pastor Simon and Rinda, we touched base on Mark 10 - The Rich Young Ruler. It was a refreshing time and I must say, I am definitely marinated now!

Went to church early today to join in the pre-service prayer at DFF. Was a good time though was just me with Aunt Beng Choo and Aunt Jenny. And I experienced His presence during worship led by Joshua during service. If you are reading this, join me! Go for a prayer meeting pre-service! It helps to get us in tune with the Lord and to worship Him in Spirit and in Truth!

I was praying hard for God to bring forth His power today! Though there wasn't an altar call, I know He's doing something deep down in the hearts of many.

A sidenote to give thanks would be the Yay! ministry Facebook page! As we see many more prayer requests coming in and younger ones beginning to open up in their sharing, this surely must be the Lord's doing!

This weekend ended with lots of food, spiritually and physically! The Lord impressed upon my heart as I was snacking on my chocs earlier...Having exercised my mouth so much, don't forget to exercise the other parts of my body as well.

It was a revelation that as I soak in His love and inputs, I ought to be exercising my faith and be a blessing as well. Lord, I pray that You'll open the doors for me to be a blessing.

Weekend has been an awesome one! And I look ahead to the coming week with all confidence in my Lord Jesus Christ! =)

In His Hands

Went for attachment job interview just now.

I began to panic as I made my way to Techpoint.

Should I bring this? Should I mention that?

Fear set in despite my many prayers said along the way.

But eventually, interview went well least in my opinion.
Kept my cool and had a good chat with the interviewer.
Though it is an MNC, I'm glad that the sup. is local and approachable.

Not quite what I was expecting for uni attachment, but I'm sure God has His plans.
There is a reason and though I may not know why, I know You planned it all already =)
Lord I thank You whether I get the job or not, but I live with the faith and confidence that You have the BEST for me.

I'll hold on, I'll wait and rejoice because there are more than this to thank You for =)

Wedding of the Year

It seemed like yesterday when I attended Sharon/Jody's wedding.

It was my first time attending a friend's wedding, someone I knew personally!

And just hours ago, I attended the Wedding of the Year for 2011 =)
Well there are a few more weddings coming up for 2011, but I believe every couple's wedding is unique and special!

So meantime, I shall blog about KY/JY's wedding because simply:
1. God-glorifying - Despite the glams and splendour of the ceremony and wedding and distinguished guests, Kon Yew and Jing Yi brought to mind who was really the Provider and Sovereign One. Despite the fact that many present are pre-believers, this lovely couple have set their decisions to honour Jesus in and throughout the wedding!

2. Was roped in months ago to help with the ceremony worship segment. Was really excited about it and glory to God for the smooth run. Though we were positioned behind the projection screen, it didn't matter to me. The fact that people couldn't really see us was even better because then, people would put their focus on the couple! Plus all the wonderful feedback and comments given only goes to show that the awesome people roped in are blessed with gifts and talents musically!

3. Good food and Grand setting. It was way beyond my expectations (for food!) and I never thought the wedding dinner would be held at S.R. It was definitely something to thank God for and yes! 1 last 6-star hotel to conquer!!! Capella!!! And the wonderful fellowship with Pastor Kenny and A Jenny, U mark/A Agnes, Joshua, Evelyn and Michelle just made the dinner memorable! Can't wait for the professional photos to be uploaded!

And not to forget, a good friend just shared me a beautiful song "What Are Words" by Chris Medina. The background of the song happens to be centred around a to-be-wed couple!

Hmmm...a really beautiful and wonderful weekend despite the fact that I woke up really late =S   Bad bad habit!

My heart's desire

Confided in another close friend today was a relief. Though this issue is very very important to me, I know it's not urgent. I choose to believe God has His best plans and the Lord knows it all.

I choose to devote my time and effort to serve and honour Him because at the end of it all, it is God's providence for me that matters.

Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. - Mat 6:33

I choose not to succumb to social pressures and reasonings, only You Lord I will follow =)

More than words

More than words is all you have to do to make it real,

then you wouldn't have to say that you love me,

cause I'd already know.

Been an interesting day, particularly ending it with a short conversation with one of my mentoring leaders on the way back to school. It was really an unexpected opinion and I honestly don't wish to accept it (in a good way).

Nevertheless, Lord lead me in Your plans. The plans You have for me. I shall have no fears; no worries. No doubt it may seem like I'm putting all my hopes on it, I know I put my hope in You, that if it is Your very will You will see it through till the end.

It's not about me, it's all about You Jesus =)

Exalted

Him and His Name alone be exalted.

For our God is Holy and Almighty.

He is enduring and forever faithful.

He is able and never slow to rescue.

The God we know, we put our trust in Him.

We want to see revival, we know its only possible by His power.

So come Lord, come and pour Your Spirit on us all.

The day He moved...

I prayed...

I laid it down at the Cross...

The unfaithful me left it as it is, hoping for the best that God will work...

And unexpectedly, He amazed me once again.

You came and You loved. And you still love.

Thank You Lord for being faithful despite my faithlessness.

You are forever to be praised.

Amen.