Only 1 way

Got news today that I'm not selected for school team...

One of the biggest blows I've had since a long time...

I can't accept it but I resolved to submit to God

In every season, I'll trust in Him...

To bring me through every circumstance...

I look to You, Jesus

Love never fails

1 Cor 13 sprang up in my mind today as I sat back and reflected on the past 12 hours...

Running around; Being distracted; Inability to focus...

I was in church but that only in the physical realm...

I feel so out of place, this familiar feeling is back to haunt me...

Now I think about what can possibly happen, even in the near future...

I really dun wish for things to turn out like that...

But it seems to me that I'm living my faith only on the outside...

My ears and eyes feels like they have been shut tight...

I can almost look into the future and see myself crumbling someday...

Because I'm around all this time, but only physically...

Deep inside of me, I'm nothing but an empty shell...

Void of feelings and deprived of that sensitivity that I once knew...

It can only be the Holy Spirit;

He is my only solution and only way;

He who knows the Father truly and His plans;

To bring and lead me through this season

Rain down on me O Lord, Rain down

1 Cor. 13:10 - But when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.

Rejections

God gave His one and only Son for the people He loved...

Jesus the Savior, rejected...

I wonder how would He have felt...

I feel like a retard...

Great is our God

God, our great God...

Today I felt really really lost and disoriented...

First, I woke up really late and missed the "gap"

I felt really bad and lousy, I was debating with myself whether I should go to church

But I concluded myself that self-condemnation isn't part of God's plans...

Leading from this, I could not bring myself to lead the youth worship...

I feel unworthy, so so dejected...

I could not imagine how things will turn out in service...

So I decided to ask Rachel to lead the entire worship set...

Things went bad every now and then...

The noise bursts from my guitar channel...

The rushing for time set-up and EQ-ing...

I feel that I have let Him down...

Now I can only turn to Him in repentence...

I know one thing for sure...

God loves me and loves me the same...

I will press on and run the race...

O Lord, bring me back to You...

Let me hear Your still small, voice again

I want to know You more and more

Jesus, O Jesus how You love me

Grace of God

God is faithful though I'm faithless...

God is good even though I sinned...

God is love even though I hated...

God is the same even though I'm so different at times...

I don't know how to thank Him enough...

I don't know how to grasp His love and grace for me...

It's so, so, so wide and deep and high...

1 - NTU allowed me to apply for hall after 2 weeks of school-travelling-maddness

2 - Brother lent me his car for this week which means I don't need to bus/train

3 - I just received $xxxxx/- from my aunt...

I don't deserve such grace

But thank You Lord

Schooling

Now's almost past week 2 of my uni life...

Somehow, I can feel the weariness every now and then...no good no good...

Lectures are like the bullet trains that goes non-stop throughout the lessons...

How to catch up?!?!?

On the other hand, I really really really don't know how I got to this, but

I got to apply for hall!!

Which means my commitment to Crusade is going to be slightly off-loaded since I don't have to

"journey to the west" every morning!! Plus I can commit to my IVP team, that's if I get in =S

After all these, I can really see a glimpse of how God interverns and works according to His plans =))

I'm holding onto You...

My grades will not matter more than letting Your will be done =)

Crazy or Lazy?

Today is only day 3! day 3!

Here's some updates:

1 - Just came home at 10plus after attending crusade weekly meet-up, which is going to be marked on my calendar so I''ll be there!

2 - School timetable just isn't going to magically going to change but I believe it can be utilized to the best of me.

3 - I just received my EID briefing notes. EID is a year-long project with 7 other students to come up with a product and to fabricate/market/design it from scratch in view of May 2010's fair...Not sure what this is about, but it has certainly come as a surprise because it means more lectures and time on projects...

4 - I passed my QET so yeah! No need for redundant lesson!!!! PTL =))

I suppose after these 3 days of schooling has really challenged my faith and commitment to God. All these work/lessons/projects/assignments are pouring in like the Niagara Falls...

Nevertheless, I've learnt to keep trusting God and stay close to my Lord...

And a proof of it, these 3 days may have been long but I find myself still able to manage...

Looking to God for strength and endurance...

Lead me on O God

Pray PRAY!!

Living by grace

Now is day 2 of uni life..

Shall say things have simmered down and I thank God for bringing nice friends into my life..

Things are still very uncertain and I can't see myself ahead in a few years time..

Nevertheless, I will trust in Him who is faithful and good..

It has been a time of testing and more to come..

I'm amazed at how brittle and fragile my faith is..

Will I still be able to stand when the trials come?

Will I still be able to trust and believe in God?

Why am I even asking myself that question now?

I seriously don't know..

I find it really hard to love..

I'm single and I think I know why..

I need God's grace..Seriously

First Day of Uni life

Life in school = Hectic

I've never been so busy running around campus..

Searching for classrooms and fighting to buy the last set of notes available..

I'm glad I got through day 1, thank You God =))

Just done up my study table and filing all my notes and tutorials..

Okay maybe not all due to shortage of the notes but yeah, I'm pretty proud of myself! haha

Well it was sure crazy travelling to and fro school..

I was trying to nap on the ride home but it was hard, yet I nodded off..

Seems like that's going to be the life for the next 17 weeks or so..

God help me! I don't want to do this on my own!!

Jesus loves =))

Love: the greatest of them all

It's been an awesome Sunday...

Loved today's worship..love the team..

There was an unspoken chemistry in the team and we could worship God and still worked together..

Message was great too..Rom 5:17 talking about God's provision of grace and gift of righteousness...

This weekend has been totally enriching and fulfilling...

Training with Sparks was great, David has a gifting for the Word I must say...

Now preparing to share cell bible study seems so much clearer than before...

After service headed to Dhoby Ghaut for late-lunch with church peeps...

Persuaded to watch HP with Joel and Mabel, oh thanks Joel for the movie treat!

I didn't know dumb-ber-door was suppose to be gay ahaha...

Was nodding off every now and then in the cinema ahaha...was just too tired...

Then after movie I couldn't decide between heading home or having dinner with Joel...

The usual-me would choose the former since I'm such a loner guy...

But I believe God had a plan for me to choose the latter...

Had my fav. western @ AMK S-11...And yes, the portion has shrunk!!!

Then had an awesome time of sharing and talking with Joel...

It's totally unexpected but I guess, it's true that hanging out with friends is really great...

It was nice to talk about stuff in church and God and love...

Nothing between us, just brotherly love! hahahahaha....

Oh well, I'm convinced that I should hang out with my friends more often...

Hope so and looking forward to it...

Heard this during morning service about the church being as one...

I'm still trying to come to terms with that...

If we are meant to be as one in the body of Christ,

then why can't we resolve our differences and issues?

I'll trust in God

I'll trust in You

I'll trust in You with all my heart

El-Shaddai

Crusade FOC

Living a surrendered life to answer God's call to go forth to be a salt and light unto the world and to bear fruit and win souls all over NTU

God if CC is Your will for me, then I pray You make it crystal clear to me...

Lord use me, here I am send me...

A New Creation

I am a new creation in Him..

I will live by the Spirit; the Spirit of God who has called me His own..

Camp's coming up in 2 days' time, not sure what to expect..

School's coming up very soon as well, hmm, uni life finally..

Well my mind's set on Campus Crusade, I pray that I'll not let the chances slip by..

God how I wish my past mistakes can be reconciliated and resolved..

Maybe, maybe not; It's in His hands..

On a side note: Thank you friend for being my friend, really.

Passion?

And it carries on...

Something's gone wrong, I know so.

God, I wish You'll tell me what is it..

Pray

What have I become?

That passion...fire...hunger...

God sent my dear friend to remind me...

I hope this tides over real soon...

ORD LO!!

This post is specially dedicated to you pinkie..

I am finally going to see you after 2 years!!!

I missed you so much since the day I handed you over..

I didn't meant to but I had no choice..

I was forced to do it and it would be for our own good..

But never mind the past I suppose..

I went through all that shit and crap for a reason..

And now I face the day..

That we can once again be together again..

You will forever be in my arms..

In my wallet you will find home..

I'll never leave home without you..

I can never live without you..

I will take care of you till I die..

Be it in sickness and in health..

Be it in poor or in richness..

Be it anywhere or anytime..

We will always be together..

I love you..

My PINK IC!

~MUACKZ~

hahahaahahahahahaha!!!

Letting go

Maybe letting you go was what God had all along...

And now it's all none and I shall not be in want,

God is my Great Shepherd and I know He loves me.

I pray for only His plans, THE BEST =))

I just can't forget the good old days.............

4 weeks and counting

It's coming to a month of my boring-stay-at-home-and-do-nothing...

Looking back, I guess hey it ain't so bad =))

Just finished Prison Break season 4! HAH! Thanks Roche for all your help...

Now onto How I Met Your Mother...

I didn't expect much of the series but hey guess what,

this American sitcom caused me to produce quite a lot of laughing gas this week =D

Oh well, but life's not meant to be all fun and no work right...

School's gona start; I'm gonna ORD...

I suppose life goes on even when the world is turned off right?

Just a thought, so what would be meaningful to you in your lifetime?

*Smiles*

God my strength

It's 330am in the morning...

I think I passed my bedtime and now I can't sleep argh!

Went to watch Night at the Museum 2 just now, not too bad.

Week's been pretty good. I must say, I'm starting to like this stay-home-no-work life haha...

Quite a few events that perked my week: Nic's "surprise" birthday; A new aircon for me; Catching up with old friend... Guess I have also been experiencing some emotional roller coaster...

I mean, come on, who doesn't? You try staying at home for 3 weeks!! =D Just kidding...

Been led to read the book of Ecclesiastes for the past weeks, interesting book...

Can't wait to see what God wants to reveal...maybe Everything is meaningless hahaha...

Well on a side note for all you faithful readers =)

Maybe things just will never work out, maybe not in this life time.

What if God wanted it to be this way? What do you think?

A broken bridge that will never be mended...You'll know what I mean =)

Never mind all that. God still loves you and me the same =)

YAWNS!!! Good night peeps!

Love

I have always been pondering over this...

God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son so that those who believe in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. - John 3:16

This is a tough one.

I would rather give up my faith and salvation to Heaven than not be able to live out God's two greatest commandments that is to love Him and others as myself.

Cause I believe in love.

What would you do?

Left or Right?

Sometimes, life is just seem so simple.

Sometimes, so hard.

Things like a decision to go left or right?

To eat chinese or western food?

To drink tea or coffee?

To stay or to leave?

Maybe I'll just have to make a choice..

Putting this off for far, far, far too long...

My brother, I really hope you are to talk to me...

There's just no one else to turn to...

For those of you close ones who've been there, thank you from my heart...

Thank you