My definition of history

Probably "those forgiven much, loves much" applies to me. As my past resurfaces in my mind, it doesn't just come back as a passing thought. It stays and the impression grows stronger and stronger.

Like I said, the kind of history that I have accumulated. Most people may never kmow in my lifetime. It sometimes come to a point that I wonder if Christ dying on the cross for me can really redeem me.

Things that if you knew, you'd never see me the same way again. AGAIN. That's just who I am. That's just how much I view the Love from God for me. I can't change what has already happened and shaped me, but I suppose the next step is my part to play to ask Him to change me.