Only 1 way

Got news today that I'm not selected for school team...

One of the biggest blows I've had since a long time...

I can't accept it but I resolved to submit to God

In every season, I'll trust in Him...

To bring me through every circumstance...

I look to You, Jesus

Love never fails

1 Cor 13 sprang up in my mind today as I sat back and reflected on the past 12 hours...

Running around; Being distracted; Inability to focus...

I was in church but that only in the physical realm...

I feel so out of place, this familiar feeling is back to haunt me...

Now I think about what can possibly happen, even in the near future...

I really dun wish for things to turn out like that...

But it seems to me that I'm living my faith only on the outside...

My ears and eyes feels like they have been shut tight...

I can almost look into the future and see myself crumbling someday...

Because I'm around all this time, but only physically...

Deep inside of me, I'm nothing but an empty shell...

Void of feelings and deprived of that sensitivity that I once knew...

It can only be the Holy Spirit;

He is my only solution and only way;

He who knows the Father truly and His plans;

To bring and lead me through this season

Rain down on me O Lord, Rain down

1 Cor. 13:10 - But when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.

Rejections

God gave His one and only Son for the people He loved...

Jesus the Savior, rejected...

I wonder how would He have felt...

I feel like a retard...

Great is our God

God, our great God...

Today I felt really really lost and disoriented...

First, I woke up really late and missed the "gap"

I felt really bad and lousy, I was debating with myself whether I should go to church

But I concluded myself that self-condemnation isn't part of God's plans...

Leading from this, I could not bring myself to lead the youth worship...

I feel unworthy, so so dejected...

I could not imagine how things will turn out in service...

So I decided to ask Rachel to lead the entire worship set...

Things went bad every now and then...

The noise bursts from my guitar channel...

The rushing for time set-up and EQ-ing...

I feel that I have let Him down...

Now I can only turn to Him in repentence...

I know one thing for sure...

God loves me and loves me the same...

I will press on and run the race...

O Lord, bring me back to You...

Let me hear Your still small, voice again

I want to know You more and more

Jesus, O Jesus how You love me

Grace of God

God is faithful though I'm faithless...

God is good even though I sinned...

God is love even though I hated...

God is the same even though I'm so different at times...

I don't know how to thank Him enough...

I don't know how to grasp His love and grace for me...

It's so, so, so wide and deep and high...

1 - NTU allowed me to apply for hall after 2 weeks of school-travelling-maddness

2 - Brother lent me his car for this week which means I don't need to bus/train

3 - I just received $xxxxx/- from my aunt...

I don't deserve such grace

But thank You Lord

Schooling

Now's almost past week 2 of my uni life...

Somehow, I can feel the weariness every now and then...no good no good...

Lectures are like the bullet trains that goes non-stop throughout the lessons...

How to catch up?!?!?

On the other hand, I really really really don't know how I got to this, but

I got to apply for hall!!

Which means my commitment to Crusade is going to be slightly off-loaded since I don't have to

"journey to the west" every morning!! Plus I can commit to my IVP team, that's if I get in =S

After all these, I can really see a glimpse of how God interverns and works according to His plans =))

I'm holding onto You...

My grades will not matter more than letting Your will be done =)

Crazy or Lazy?

Today is only day 3! day 3!

Here's some updates:

1 - Just came home at 10plus after attending crusade weekly meet-up, which is going to be marked on my calendar so I''ll be there!

2 - School timetable just isn't going to magically going to change but I believe it can be utilized to the best of me.

3 - I just received my EID briefing notes. EID is a year-long project with 7 other students to come up with a product and to fabricate/market/design it from scratch in view of May 2010's fair...Not sure what this is about, but it has certainly come as a surprise because it means more lectures and time on projects...

4 - I passed my QET so yeah! No need for redundant lesson!!!! PTL =))

I suppose after these 3 days of schooling has really challenged my faith and commitment to God. All these work/lessons/projects/assignments are pouring in like the Niagara Falls...

Nevertheless, I've learnt to keep trusting God and stay close to my Lord...

And a proof of it, these 3 days may have been long but I find myself still able to manage...

Looking to God for strength and endurance...

Lead me on O God

Pray PRAY!!

Living by grace

Now is day 2 of uni life..

Shall say things have simmered down and I thank God for bringing nice friends into my life..

Things are still very uncertain and I can't see myself ahead in a few years time..

Nevertheless, I will trust in Him who is faithful and good..

It has been a time of testing and more to come..

I'm amazed at how brittle and fragile my faith is..

Will I still be able to stand when the trials come?

Will I still be able to trust and believe in God?

Why am I even asking myself that question now?

I seriously don't know..

I find it really hard to love..

I'm single and I think I know why..

I need God's grace..Seriously

First Day of Uni life

Life in school = Hectic

I've never been so busy running around campus..

Searching for classrooms and fighting to buy the last set of notes available..

I'm glad I got through day 1, thank You God =))

Just done up my study table and filing all my notes and tutorials..

Okay maybe not all due to shortage of the notes but yeah, I'm pretty proud of myself! haha

Well it was sure crazy travelling to and fro school..

I was trying to nap on the ride home but it was hard, yet I nodded off..

Seems like that's going to be the life for the next 17 weeks or so..

God help me! I don't want to do this on my own!!

Jesus loves =))

Love: the greatest of them all

It's been an awesome Sunday...

Loved today's worship..love the team..

There was an unspoken chemistry in the team and we could worship God and still worked together..

Message was great too..Rom 5:17 talking about God's provision of grace and gift of righteousness...

This weekend has been totally enriching and fulfilling...

Training with Sparks was great, David has a gifting for the Word I must say...

Now preparing to share cell bible study seems so much clearer than before...

After service headed to Dhoby Ghaut for late-lunch with church peeps...

Persuaded to watch HP with Joel and Mabel, oh thanks Joel for the movie treat!

I didn't know dumb-ber-door was suppose to be gay ahaha...

Was nodding off every now and then in the cinema ahaha...was just too tired...

Then after movie I couldn't decide between heading home or having dinner with Joel...

The usual-me would choose the former since I'm such a loner guy...

But I believe God had a plan for me to choose the latter...

Had my fav. western @ AMK S-11...And yes, the portion has shrunk!!!

Then had an awesome time of sharing and talking with Joel...

It's totally unexpected but I guess, it's true that hanging out with friends is really great...

It was nice to talk about stuff in church and God and love...

Nothing between us, just brotherly love! hahahahaha....

Oh well, I'm convinced that I should hang out with my friends more often...

Hope so and looking forward to it...

Heard this during morning service about the church being as one...

I'm still trying to come to terms with that...

If we are meant to be as one in the body of Christ,

then why can't we resolve our differences and issues?

I'll trust in God

I'll trust in You

I'll trust in You with all my heart

El-Shaddai