Burning...

Perhaps of what is to come.

Maybe the best thing to do

For some reason, the drifting gets more evident as time goes by.

Giving up is really horrible.

And I fear that time is drawing near.

Summed Up

And this morning just marks the coming of an end to my stay on Canaan.

It has been a humbling journey. One which I set off with certain expectations and now I am about to return home with a different set of goals or outcomes. It is a wonder how each duration back at this incredible place of miracles never fails to send my mind into a mode of anticipating the End Times.

Once again, I came with a pretty much personal agenda. And once again, I would leave with a personal agenda except this time, it wasn't mine.

And perhaps the path ahead isn't one traffic junction where I have to determine immediately if it is going to be a turn or straight ahead. It seemed more apt to compare to a boat set sail on a journey towards its destination. One where a boat that always looks to its compass will eventually reach its end goal whereas the other that assumes the direction it sets out upon will always be right, ends up nowhere.

As I once again raise my anchor and sails forth in faith, I remind myself that time to time, it is essential to lower my anchor and find my bearing. And surely if I have gone off course, it would be imperative to change my direction to be back on course than to stubbornly refuse change.

So Lord, may my prayer rise up to the Heavens.
To your ears, I gently whisper my desires.
Be the anchor of my soul,
As I give You full control.

Be that Lamp unto my feet and that Light unto my path.
May my heart burn for You with passion and if the need for it, my body too.

So that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and please him in every way:
- bearing fruit in every good work
- growing in the knowledge of God
- being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience
- and giving joyful thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light.

A very important reminder

http://www.caintv.com/by-definition-if-you-dont-get

Unknown

Journeys involve movement, action, stops and starts, detours, delays, and trips into the unknown.

Journey Of Rediscovering

So I am finally here, in the midst of a journey of rediscovering.
It has been a roller coaster 2013 and I don't know what to expect ahead.

God is always greater than all of our troubles. ~ M.B.

Too tired

I guess i'm walking away.

So maybe it's time

Remind Myself

Ahoy

To discover new grounds, is to leave the shoreline. and I look forward to the journey before me. Maybe it's staying put, maybe it's a call to move away. Whatever it maybe, I know I want it Your way more than anything.

So lead me Lord, lead me as You will. Renew my faith to follow You. Regardless.

Keeps for life.

It's been 48 hours, but it is still so fresh in my memory.

That last dinner with her; that last phone call to her; that last glimpse of her breathing.

Now she's gone, I know it'll take a while but she can never leave my heart.

My Birthday Present to 阿妈

Sunday Dinners will never be the same again.

Ah Gong & Ah Ma

Treasures of my heart

I am still in shock though it's been a week now.

阿嬷，

一路好走。

孙子，阿杨敬上。

Capacitated.

I choose to believe You have capacitated me for this season, for a reason.

I choose to believe I will not hit a burn out in the arms of Your loving arms. I will rest easy.

I choose to believe You are stretching me far beyond my expectations, beyond my comfort zone.

I choose to believe that even in the pains and sorrows, there is joy when I choose to look Your way.

So I pray,

For the sake of the world, 

Burn like a fire in me.

Light a flame in my soul,

For every eye may see.

To be a fool for You,

To give You my youth.

A season of seeds to sow,

And I want to keep my soul.

Take my life, and let it be.

According to Your Will.

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Much more expectations have been put in my way. Time to be reminded, to live worthy of him and pleasing to Him, not Man.

Listen & Discern

When You're not speaking, I know You're listening. It really stirred within me how things are unfolding these past weeks & months.

It seems pretty obvious at some point yet at another, it doesn't. It's kind of like staring through the window on a misty day. Some signs are clearly showing me that You are opening a door for me to the next chapter of my life. Yet rationalization creeps into my mind & questions bombard me.

I will choose to wait upon You & seek You. As much as it excites me & is stirring within me a calling, I want to know it's according to Your plan for me.

Reason or season, this is my prayer. I surrender; let all my desires and all I desire be Your Will in my life.

Things I don't understand

So yes God, Church Camp 2013 has come to an end.
But I know You were in our midst the whole time, even during the Leaders' R&R.


Somethings interesting happened this camp and I'm not sure what You're doing.
But I know I will stand by Your last word to me, and I will wait on You.

Living life on top.

You hold my future in Your hands

Lord I surrender, my agenda, my will.

Times like this I find myself at a crossroad; a cross junction. Maybe some get stuck here not knowing which route to take; some get lost assuming their sense of direction is right.

Mine? Is to constantly seek Your counsel. And when you stay silent, it is the same principle as any instructor has, stay on the course.

So God I pray in the exciting times and in the stressful times ahead, keep me sane and keep me saint, that wherever I maybe, my life be a projection of You.

Long time coming

Seems like I have not spoken to you in ages. Tonight's reminder just can't be any better timing...

I pray, either you enlarge my plate or take stuff off it. I choose to believe there is nothing you cannot redeem.

It's been great thus far. Yet, it can be greater; better. Trusting you all the way.

Intimacy with you is a necessity of life.

The Strength to Stand Alone

Rant

I shall not rant. How then do I find release and yet not sin against You?

No Doubts About It

Today has been such an encouragement after all.
The worship duty. The turnout in cell.
I say it must be You.
It must be You doing something in our midst.

More of You Lord. More Lord.