Grace

How gracious can our God be?

1) I just got to know that I passed my first stage for Pilot vocation in the RSAF.

2) I got into NTU mechanical engineering (direct entry into 2nd year). Though it's not my first choice, thank God I have a choice.

3) God spoke to me during Worship Jam II. I've failed to put my faith in Him even though I cried out to Him so much. It was all along me unwilling to let Him work in my life. Lord Jesus, please move in my life and mould it. I have a strong desire for 2 things but I have no idea which one was God assuring me that will eventually come to pass. I'm just going to walk close to Him and admire His wondrous works in my life. Thank you Lord.

Choose to hear what the Lord speaks, for what He commands is done with love. Listen carefully for His voice, because many distractions and temptations will come.

Amen.

NTU

I got into NTU Mechanical Engineering (direct entry to 2nd year)!!!

I must thank God.

Thank You, Lord!

Amen.

Doors

TOday had Alpha session today..Lesson was focusing on God's guidance for us. How He guides us in my life.

Realised how much faith I've lost in Him and how bland my spiritual life is right now. Indeed, it is the trying times that we are best relying on Jesus and walking close to God. I begin to question myself again, do I really have Jesus in my life...Did I sincerely invite Him into my life?Did I really open the door to Him?

Because of my lack of faith now, I begin to draw further from God. Eyes turning more to the worldly possessions and issues. Mind begins to worry. Heart begins to panick. Life becomes bitter and tensed.

But because of Jesus redemption, things are never the same. For of cause we have to give up the worldly desires and willing to take up the cross.

I have not exactly let go of the issues that I've committed to God. How small is my faith in Jesus. Lord, forgive me for my faith in You is so small. Grant me the peace that transcends all understanding, to know that You are always in control. Dear God, it is hard and You know it, I'll do my best to let go. I pray You take control. Life's good with You around always. That's for sure. You give Your children only the best, thank You God! Amen.

My Shield, My strength

O Lord today I rededicate my life to You
In Your hands I place my trust
That everyday I might live
According to Your living words

Lord abound in me Your everlasting grace
Uphold me in Your great love
Wash me over with Your Truth
Lord let Your truth be known

You are my Saviour my salvation
The rock on which I stand
You are my Saviour my salvation
The light unto my path

Lord, I cast my desires before Your throne of grace
Lord, You know my every hurt in my heart
Lord, only You can see the thoughts of my mind
Lord, I want to follow You closely in everyday of my life

Lord, I don't want to live my life about myself anymore
Lord, help me to see what You see in my life
Lord, help me to love those who do not love me back
Lord, help me recognise Your love I pray

God, I love You.
Forgive me I pray.
Take me to You again.
Bring me out of this.

Amen.

2nd mission trip

This time, I'm heading to Myanmar on the 31st March. Do remember to keep praying for the people there. Anyway, I never saw myself having another chance to go missions before NS. Thank God, it happened.

Why? Because it's what I saw. Matthias if you read this, God can do anything!

It's the most beautiful yet sometimes scary thing that happens. In any case, I thank God. My dad is sure nice enough. Silently sponsoring my kinabalu trip, Myanmar trip and just showing concern in every area. He leaves ample room for me to be independent.

If your father on earth loves you so much, how much more Your Father in Heaven who is there watching over you 24/7.

Learnt how to preach from A. Mary through my weeks of freetime. Good experience and I feel I've been digging deep into God's word. Yet, the Devil's attacks becomes stronger. Seems like I must go deeper :) and pray pray!!

Some past events in my life just re-floated in my mind recently. One word I can only think of. Forgiveness. It's so hard to forgive because I have not done it completely. I want to love the person and just forgive. I want to lay it all down before God but I never seem to had done so for the past months. It hurts a lot and the devil sees this as a point to attack me.

Lord, I pray on my own strength, no bondages can I break. Lord with You, I can do anything. Lord, I pray You grant me faith to believe You can rescue me. Amen.

I wanto believe

I do believe, yet I have so much unbelief in my life. I walk in faith, yet I have so little faith. I follow God, yet I repeatedly find myself stumbling on a path of my own choosing. Paul teaches this is a common disorder among Christians, but he also says the cure for our unbelief is, quite simply, just to believe God. In the midst of our complex negotiations with God on the subject of belief, Paul sums up the issue with one simple phrase: "Abraham believed God …." (Romans 4:3).

I believe; help me to live like I believe. I believe; help me to make decisions like I believe. I believe, Lord, you are trustworthy; help me to abandon my mythology that says I am more trustworthy than you.

God is really really faithful

Never seem like it's possible for God to plan for me to sign on as a fighter pilot. He has opened a way today for me. I came home after cell group to receive an RSAF letter on my table! haha...Thank You Daddy God! I'll use this job and glorify Your name! If I get in.

Today had performance at arts cafe. Nice place. Good ambience. Though I guess I didn't do too well, I just sang unto the Lord. Gave Him the thanksgiving and praises He deserves. Thank You God once again! Amen.

Mount Kinabalu

Hi, im back :)

Continued with previous

That was just a moment of ranting.
Just the Devil trying to place his foot into me and taking God away.
Not trying to act holy...
Sin is constantly hanging around
Especially those who are trying to lead a Godly life
Seek and run to God when sin comes

Remember, run....not fight it...

Lonely...Or Loner?

It's the time of being alone again.
Why am I so vulnerable to being lonely?
Life's pretty plain nowadays.
Where's the enthu me?

Driving lessons and overseas trips.
None of them seem to be fun.
Something's missing in my life.
A hole is left unmended.

Anyone?
Taking my life as it is
Never can I satisfy myself
Sinning against God is so easy
It's making me slip away

I will try
I promise I'll try
It's not that I do not desire
But a heart not determined

Where is she in my life
Where is God in my life
Where is love in my life
My life's going down again

Exams

Finally the tormenting season is over...Things to do up next:

-Mount Kinabalu trip
-Driving Licence
-Guitar training
-Swim and swim
-Run and run
-Weights and weights
-Part-time job?

God and me?

Some verses to look back while I go through the final race in my polytechnic life (By God's grace, it shall be). Thank God for availability of His word so freely to me.

John 3:16 - For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Psalm 46:10 - Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.

Matthew 6:33-34 - But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be given to you as well. Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Galatians 5:22-23 - But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

Mark 12:33 - To love him with all your heart, with all your understanding and with all your strength, and to love your neighbor as yourself is more important than all burnt offerings and sacrifices.

The true treasures that can only be found in the word of His.

O Lord Our God

Song from Psalm 7:17 and 8:1

Bukit Timah

Today was first training day for M. Kinabalu...
Wasn't exactly a very high hill to train on, but the gruelsome trail has definitely shown me what to expect ahead. It was not really tiring a bit throughout and after. But as some said, show respect to Mount K. if you want to conquer it. Indeed, I'll be intensively preparing myself mentally and physically for it. Lessons I drawn from today's training.

1. In life, it's not about me getting to the point. It's how I can bring people around me along to achieve that goal.

2. Life is not to be rushed or taken at a superbly slow pace. It's about regulating and just being discipline. To rush through the training is impossible and to take your own sweet time, will only delay in finishing it.

It was definitely a beautiful time of training and fellowshipping with the rest of the climbers. Youths were definitely still much alive and the adults were doing good. Even the youngest climber had no problem reaching the halfway mark. Time to stock up on gatorade and chocolate bars!

Let's perserve on and just as to apply in our spiritaul lives, suffering doesn't mean saddness. It's the way to enjoyment and moulding process. Looking forward to the day to climb. God bless.

lonely...

Feeling lonely?

Being alone but not feeling lonely. I can only thank God enough for this that He has told. How magnificent it is. Being all by myself but not feeling lonely at all. I love it. Why go into a group of people and yet feel as if no one is bothered about you.

God, indeed it's how You think that I care about. God, You have the power to speak to anyone. The power to change any idea. The power to create. God, when will I see that glorious work of Yours in my life...

Change me Lord, for Your glory.
Use me Lord, for Your will.
And all honour be to Your name, Amen.

Proverbs 31:10-31

Verse 30: Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting. But a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.

U. Mark shared regards to wife of noble character today. Thanks to God that He uses people to share His word. Indeed, it is encouraging that the bible even tells men what traits to look for in a woman. Many a times, friends around me always ogle at females and start commenting on what they look for and how hot their ideal partners should be. Wondering, how true is it for us and children of God to behave like this too.

Many crushes and many chances. Nevertheless, the one in me, in my heart stands firmly.
It was tough and is still hard. Challenging but I shall endure, for the Lord has His plans for me. Sometimes, I feel so lost and question why. But I am reassured that God who can do all things, sees the matters of my heart. He hears and He knows. He never fails. We may not get what we desire, but I know, if it is not for me to have, Lord please help to me to accept Your will. For it will not be easy for me to swallow, but I pray Lord, let that 3 ---> 10. No doubt, let Your will be done in my life.

Listening to Your precious words.
Standing still in Your presence.
My awesome God.
My wondrous Lord.

You came and You reign.
You died and You rose again.
Jesus, You're my Lord.
It's You I need, all of my life.
I trust in You.

What a random praise line that I came up for You, Lord. Nevertheless, love You Lord. Even as a foolish lover, because I know You exist and Your goodness endures forever. Amen.

Cell...SGoon??

Went for cell. Rush down from competition at Simei ITE. Reached about 915...
I left at 830 and wanted to grab a cab by 845 but the cab that came along only came at 855...why...

Many things happened between 830 and 845...Want to know why?

I was praying to God while looking out for a cab...I just kept praying the same prayer over and over again, holding hopes that God will send a cab. I argued with Him why I cannot get a cab for so long, trust me I did really ask God a lot of matters...Thank God, and I mean thank you Lord, You sent the cab coming. Though it did not come at the timing I desired, the driver was pretty fast though he looked older than 65 already.

Anyway, arrived at cell and U. Francis prompted everyone to clap for my arrival. I don't know what to say. I mean in the good way. God had sent the cab coming not at my timing but He did send the cab and what U. Francis did, it just touched me. The cell or rather the caretakers of the cell are just so wonderful. God gave the care and they passed it on. It just hit on me, whether I was doing the same to people around me. Am I being hospitable or hostile??

Thank God for SG cell.
Thank God for His grace.
Thank God for everything.

Kinabalu

Today Uncle Kenny preached on Psalm 131 and talking about child-like faith in God for this year 2007. He spoke of Psalm 46:10 which happens to be my verse for the year.

"Be still and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations;
I will be exalted in the earth."

Today, I felt God assuring me go back to Him. Don't give up and stop praying because that's why the evil one desires. I'm still trying to pick myself up and the bible up again especially. Indeed the word of God is so filled with treasures and gems of advice, Lord, guide me through this period. Lord, I desire for a weaned child-like faith, let me bow down to Your purpose and let Your will be done. Amen.

Going to M. Kinabalu, signed up today. Going to train hard for it, might want to consider carrying U. Anthony's younger daughter up since she doesn't have the fitness to go up by herself( she's 4 only) so I'll challenge myself.

Who do you know that is gifted in serving others? Think about what they can teach you today

Was sitting around on the couch, watching the tv when this came to me since I've been having trouble accepting that not everyone has me as their priority.

Jesus was sent down to earth to love all equally. Imagine if He turned away as everyone despised him. This world will never be saved then?

But by the grace of God, Jesus still loved and loves us all the same and still died for you and me on the cross, paying the price of our sin once and for all. Difficult to accept that a stranger can actually pay for my debts? But it happened, by faith, I believe God has the best for me.

Forgive me O' Lord once again I've failed you a thousand times. Lord, indeed Your name is higher and greater for You are everlasting and gracious. I pray that You will bring me back under Your wings and let me see the glory of Your grace and mercy. Let Thy will be done. Amen.

I'm back

i'm back!