Psalms 103:1-5

That's the verse Pastor Steven Teo gave from the Lord today in Youth Empowering Service. Yes, I believe the Lord is near and He hears. Amen to that.

He's always been speaking to me every single time I come before Him. Thank You Father.

Nice to see Pastor Steven drop by and give a message. Committment is the greatest aspect of life...What are you committed today?

The Lord is good and taste and see that He is truly the One for you and me.
The Lord loves you and me. Do you?
In Jesus Name, I thank You Father for everything in my life.
Amen.

Knee op

Thank God all went well for the op. Painful though when I walk but all in all, give thanks :)

Need clutches too heh...

41 days mc (not bad huh)

Things to do during my mc?
Comp games?
Books?
Nah, i wanto devote 50% of my day time to worship n QT. God, help me to fulfil this that I can draw nearer to You. Amen!

God-glorification

Lesson learnt today...Talents and God-glorifying.


Something happened just now, hit me really hard. Am I thinking too much?

Lord, why?

The Healing Touch

Before I begin blogging, I think I must apologize to someone. I've been having too many negative thoughts of life, been feeling really lonely and far from everyone, though I'm sort of free from NS liability for the next few weeks.

Sorry God.

Many things has happened so much since my enlistment. Coming close to 7 months, I noticed how God has worked in my life. What have I done in return? He has spoken so many times and so much prophecies, am I holding onto His words and standing on His promises?

Today is the 8th March. In 2 more days, I will be wheeled into an operating theatre to do up my right knee. Long time meniscus problem for 6 years, finally I'm getting it done up. Doc's going to drill 2 holes on my knee and remove probably a good 20% of my mensicus, no side effects for the operation. Yet, this is my prayer, that the Lord of healing and goodness will bring me through this time. Is this the "heart of a lion" that the Lord wants me to have?

Mr. Mas has escaped from his cosy nest in Singapore and has chosen to reside probably in a forested area. His runaway has certainly brought about much chatterings and questions. How did he do it?

Food prices soaring sky high over the past few months. Maybe in the future, we can only afford to eat bread, without flour? Did anyone ever recall Left behind and linked it to this food-scarcity issue? Is it the time that Jesus is coming back? Are we waiting for His glorious return? Are we ready?

I hope this 2008, I can truly let her go and concentrate on what God wants me to accomplish. I believe that He knows what I desires and He has the best, which He always gives. I have no worries in my life cause I know I have a good God. I know in my heart she's still the one, but it just isn't time yet, it just isn't the time. I pray and trust that the Lord in His perfect timing, will do great wonders for His children.

All in all, the Lord is good. Have you tasted the goodness of the Lord?

Bowing down to God's will

Have you been in a situation where God requires you to listen to Him and do according to His will?

Well, I pray that we all do and listen to Him, because He has only the best for you and me!

Things happening since my last update:

-Have been blessed in NDU leader's course, nice friends and instructors
-God speaking to me so clearly even in camp
-Went for further medical review recently and through this week, God is probably telling me He's going to pull me out of my diving training (which starts on Monday btw). I find myself struggling to follow His will for me as I began to accept the fact I'm in NDU. Yet, God seems to be pulling me out of the course at the moment when I am halfway through the race. I don't know why but I want to believe He has His reasons.

Last Sunday's service was anointing. Speakers from the Healing Room from COOS gave prophecies even before the sermon. I had mine and I thank God, He listens and He answers. Among the words spoken, me having a "heart of a lion". I left it as it is and this week while in camp, I came across a video line as I entered the room:

-Heart of a lion
-Skin of a rhino
-Soul of an angel

God indeed is trying to tell me something. What is it? I can only seek to know.

And in SGcell last night, my takeaway: Do I love Him? Or am I just a routine Christian? Is that personal relationship with my Lord and Saviour alive?

Lord, I pray You forgive me for my transgressions and foolishness. I pray that through Your Holy Spirit, feel our hearts with love and wisdom that we live in fear and reverence and love for You and fullest for the glory of Your name. Amen.

Chinese New Year

It's Chinese New Year Eve, gonna do a quick update as demanded..heh

Though been going back to camp and stuff can be quite boring and diving phase is coming after Chinese New Year, I get to see God's goodness. Such as a day off yesterday out of the blue and I say I am truly blessed in God's eyes. If you ever feel God is not seeing your needs, think again...Ask and believe...He is there...

Some interesting highlights on Sunday back in church...message that speaks to me totally...Delays happen in our lives because God has something bigger and better in His mind for us...and Uncle Mark sharing with me on some issues...hmmm

God, what are You trying to say?

That's all...Oh I passed my DRIVING TEST on Friday =)

Thank God and also, my newborn niece is born at 3pm yesterday. Her name is Rachel.

God bless everyone with a happy Chinese New Year!

HELLWEEK

It's finally over...Thank God it's over and felt like Heaven's week.



More details, come to me :)

Hellweeker 13-17 Jan 08

Oh well..1 more day to go..actually to think of it now, it's only 5 days and I now realised God is all along there beside me to help me...

Thank You God

for the many verses You gave me
for the many friends who encouraged me
for the prophecy You spoke through Your people
for the Friday bookouts You always gave
for the grace for me every week
for the strength for training everyday

I am going to go through this hellweek as heavenweek cause I know I have You, God with me throughout this time.

It won't be easy but least I know You will bring me through.
In Jesus Name,
Amen.

Hell Day

Hi just came back from 24hour Hell Day Training...feeling really sleepy at the moment...it was probably the craziest day of my life..You have to undergo it yourself to experience it!

Nothing much to say...my faith's just tumbling down as challenges pile up...someone help?

2008

Hello 2008! It's a brand new year, not quite sure if it would be happy but I pray that I will walk in faith through 2008.

Things that I want to achieve in 2008:
-Pass Driving Test and bless others
-Get into OCS and RSAF Pilot Selection
-More Salvation

For SGcell in 2008:
-Cell to multiply

I've made a covenant with God. I told Him I can't carry on like this anymore for 2008. I begged Him to make a way out for me yet am reminded of His words, "Wait upon me" .

It is so much hurt and putting me in a dilemma through 2007. For those of you who probably know what I'm talking about...yes...It's bothering me. I will find it hard to share to certain people about this so please understand me, thanks!

Satan been telling me so much lies and tempting me to do this and that. God, that is not Your voice! I will stay firm on where I am and move strong in what I do.

"I choose to be holy,
set apart for You My Master,
Ready to do Your will"

And that is my prayer for 2008. Lord, I can only look to You in faith for refuge.

A whole new revolution

Been an exciting 2007 for me as this year comes to an end soon.
Mount Kinabalu;
Poly Graduation;
National Service in NDU;
of course and other small issues in my life

Yet all in all, I can look back and only thank God. I am changed for the better and am safely growing in His love. Things can always happen and circumstances changes, yet I know for sure, the love of Christ is always here in me. Thank You God. Despite certain discouraging matters in my life, I look and focus on God to comfort me and encourage me, keep going and hold on.

The greatest love for everyone of us when we feel so despaired or down: God sent His Son, His one and only Son to die for me and you!

Reflecting back on 2007, I thank God for every event and friend I came across. I thank God for the many wonderful encounters I have with Him. I thank God because He is my God.

Will update soon on 2008 coming..Hang in there!

Count down to Team Building Week

So called as "Hellweek"...It's like 3 more weeks to it. Not very excited about it but yet, I will go with confidence that my God will be watching over me through the period of training. I know my God has His plans to bring me through hellweek.

Looking back so far...so many things to thank God for...

-New phone
-New laptop (coming soon)
-Friday Bookouts
-Safety through trainings

I never take my friday bookouts for granted, I see them as God's wonders in my life since not everyone gets to bookout on fridays..Got my new phone recently...N81-8Gb...Thank God my brother bought it for me la...483 bucks!!!

Anyway he's getting me the new laptop too...how nice right! Why I thank God for safety? My company friend almost drowned on Friday. I mean drowned but almost left us. Instructors had to pull him up 6m from below the water surface and do CPR on him...Through that short few minutes, so many things ran through my mind...I'm pretty sure for the rest of the guys who overheard the whole event. "WAKE UP! WAKE UP! DON'T YOU LEAVE US!"

It was just a couple of minutes, yet it hit me so much...life is really short and fragile...what counts in your life today??

Your results?
Your achievements in your workplace?
Your salary every month?
The one you cherish in your heart?

What matters to you most today if you're going to leave tomorrow?

2.4km timing been improving much so far...thank God because I know I cannot do it without His strength...8.21 to 8.32 to 8.12

I begin to see the big picture why I'm in NDU...

Lord, my life is in Your hands...take it and use me for Your perfect plan. Amen.

1st week of PCP

Hey i'm back...early bookout :) really thank God so far for all He has done! Anyway thanks for keeping me in prayers...this week has turned out surprisingly good but of course, I have a good God that's why! Through the hundreds of diamond pushups and many swimming evolutions like rope climbing, drown proofing and water confidence. Thank God I had a breakthrough in so many areas.

2.4km run - 8min 21 sec (1st in the company)
1km swim - 20min 23 sec (2nd in the company)

All these by the grace of God and of course, thank God I am still alive. All these whackings and physical are not going to daunt me no more because God has His perfect plans for me through all these. Hallejulah!

NS life

Well, been a long long time since I've blogged. Some updates here.

BMT (Basic Military Training) is one week left. So far this 10 week phase has been blessed. Nothing much and training's still quite slack.

Coming up is 6 weeks (PCP) physical conditioning phase where I will be grilled physically all the time. Hundreds of counts of exercises. Pushups; Chasing Rabbits; Jumping Jacks...Why?

On the 7th week would be my hellweek, or team building week so they call it. Basically it is 5 days of non-stop physical exercises and hammering of your mental strength. 4 hours of sleep in total for 5 days, yup you heard me. 4 hours of sleep. Bet I can beat ethel's record flat haha...

Anyway, if you read this, do pray for me to have endurance through this time. If I have a choice, I would not want to go through this. Hopefully can get out of course.

But all in all, God the everlasting is here with me. It's all less than 28 weeks in total and I'll be done with the trainings. What can be so bad about it...God is everywhere and He is faithful. I'll just carry on in my walk, trust Him to bring me through because He is real and good.

Thank You Father for everything, present and future. I pray for Your peace and joy to fill my life. Bring me through this season with Your grace. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Testify to Love

Beautiful Song

National Service Part 2

Though NS ain't easy and stressful at times, I got a really cool piece of news. So ask me for it if you really want to know =)

God bless all, all in His creation. Believe that He never slumbers and is there for you and me. Ask in Jesus name with thanksgiving. Amen.

Lord, I have alot of worries and problems. But I thank You that I know You will make a way and I see clearer of certain things now.

National Service

Today is my first bookout day. Past 10 days was pretty alright. UPs and DOWNs happened throughout. Met really good cabin mates but of cause had some bad encounters with certain people in the company. Total intake for my unit BMT is 134. Among this, 2 have already been downgraded and out-of-course.

Life pretty much the same daily. Hopefully I'll come through all this. Thank GOd

Naval Diving Unit

Well so long to all of you I love dearly. People I cherished and kept in my heart. Those of you who have forgotten who I am, I still love you. I really have no idea what is ahead and to happen.

Lord, keep me going.

Accountability Group - Love you guys for the card, I will keep it safe! You guys rock my life!

SGcell - Thanks for the prayers and intercession.

Youth Ministry - Thanks for the care and prayers.

Uncle Mark - For all your effort, time and wise words.

Serene - You'll always be my best friend.

Ethel - Thanks for your encouragements, they really mean much.

Sam Leo - Take care sister. Will always keep in touch with you about the updates.

Aunt Erika - Thanks for the concerns always. Never fails to cheer me up inside.

And the rest of you whom I have not mentioned, please don't put a sword on my neck. Love you all the same. Cherish the times and people around you before they are gone. Life is short.

In my life, there are many things I have forgotten and let go of. Yet, some people and issues just will not go out of my mind. I choose to hold onto them. My prayer, dear God, take control of my life and let there be more of You and less of me. Let Your joy be my strength and Your arms be my refuge in times of need. Let Your angels surround me and guard me even in the darkest times.

O Lord, this I give unto You. A life of offering to You and a prayer of blessing upon the people I have met in my life. In Jesus most precious name I pray, Amen.

Modern Levite

9 more days...That's all I have left. Been 9 days since I last updated.

1 Sept: Church 35th Anniversary. This time was really a mistake to involve in 2 sections, I felt really stretched and tired after the celebrations. Somehow, they were all in the midst of my season of disappointments. I can say I was actually "acting" for the celebrations because no way I could give thanks to God after all that had happened. Once again, drained out after the celebrations.

I've been running away from God since the time I failed my pilot interview and subsequently, driving test. I could not accept the fact that He's taken the things of my desires away. It's been a year of rejections already. I can only hope in Jerm. 29:11 that He had plans to give me hope. I really need the hope soon.

A spiritual uplift would be at Modern Levites Conference at FCBC. I had no expectations or heart to listen when I signed up, but somehow God said a lot through the conference. The first verse I heard at the opening ceremony: You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

It just broke down the barriers inside my heart instantly. I have not been seeking God for a very very long time, as if a thirsty man who refuse to look for water. For 3 days of the conference, I learnt a lot on worship and going through Abraham and Isaac in a different point of view has taught me a lot. Moses and Joshua as well, the battles that were won if the men of faith kept their arms up high in the Name of the Lord.

I have not been holding my faith up high in times of battles/crisis. Perhaps all these desires have been clouding out God and gaining more importance than God that probably, better for me not to have been successful. It's so difficult to humble oneself again.

Some of you are going to be leaders/men of faith in unusual places.

I wonder if that was for me since I'm going into NS really soon.

I really pray/hope to come back to the Lord. It's been far too long a dry season and I thank God for the people in my life who have been there when I am at my lowest, I really appreciate you guys.

Nic: Unknowingly my spiritual role model and guidance in my walk with God. To remind me that someone out that is living for God despite all his short-comings and prayer breaks any obstacles in our ways.

Serene: My best friend. Giving me the encouragement when I really needed it. Though we have not been talking to each other for quite some time, but I'll still remember your kind words.

Ethel: Yup, I will keep in mind of your reminder. I'll try my best to keep them.

Things don't necessarily go the way you want them to be.

God?

Had my driving test yesterday. Was a total flop. Really disappointed with the TP system. Anyway, this has hit my faith level a second time since my pilot interview.

Perhaps I did not seek God enough?
Not enough faith?
or maybe God just doesn't want me to drive...

I seriously have no clue.
It's been a period of rejects and closing of doors.
Who am I kidding...

Things are going to get worse in 18 days' time.
Just wait and see.
Somehow, I know God is not making things easy for me to go through...